Close a Door

I never thought that I have the gut to do it. I always thought that I am too afraid to lose my comfort zone. Finally I do it. I’ve tendered an immediate resignation on 14.07.07. Yes, immediate, not 24-hours notice or one month’s notice.

Well, the truth is that I had enough. I’ve wrote a post about my boss earlier and I have so much more heart wrenching quite similar stories that I don’t want to waste my time or blog space writing about him.

At that exact moment I am not thinking properly, all I know is that I have to leave the firm otherwise I’ll go mad or I’ll retaliate badly to him. I do not care even if I have to pay back one month’s salary or that I won’t be having this month’s salary to spend. I packed all my stuff into the car and drove smoothly home. It’s like a big stone heavily burdening my back for 2 years have been lifted.

But of course la… once I got home, I have to tell Gen that I’ve resigned, (suddenly I remembered that we have discussed this and vaguely remember that he told me to look for another job before I can resign from that office) o-oooh! And then the consequences finally sink in. What have I done? I am barely surviving on monthly pay cheque and if I’m not working who’ll pay for my car? House loan? Other loans… other commitments… all adding up nearly to two thousand per month. I think I have to sell off my car and also the house and then maybe I’ll sell Nasi Lemak every morning at the junction to the main road. But then, my Nasi Lemak sucks, I don’t even eat my own Nasi Lemak and why should anybody be interested to buy and eat it.

Hmmm.