Heavy Stomach and Aching Backside

i’ve been troubled by this problem as long as i could remember. my pregnancy was confirmed when adam is just only 5 months old. i couldn’t remember actually how i felt about it. i’m happy. i love my pregnancy period even when i throw up every morning, i cannot eat this or that, got terrible mood swings, cry all the time and having this terrible backside problem etc.. i still love it soooo much. having something eheh wrong terminology, having somebody growing inside of you is the most wonderful feeling in the world.

daddy is busy as always, i only see him in the morning. most of the time we woke up seeing adam with his antics, we shared a laugh or two, sometimes we have breakfast together.. but somehow we grow apart from each other. i dont know how. we dont actually have problem but we just stop talking to each other, stop sharing.

last time when i was pregnant with adam, daddy used to give me a good massage, easing my backside pain, just hold me when i fall asleep. but somehow things are different now. why should it be different?

now i got used to doing things myself. i went for monthly check up myself, paying bills myself, buying stuff even furniture on my own, but the saddest thing is that i have to buy baby stuff alone. i always imagine myself shopping for baby stuff with daddy, sharing the excitement of expecting the arrival of a new person in our life.. it’s something to be shared… not like this.



however, when it comes to adam, i insist that he have to make sure adam got his immunisasition on time as his responsibilities. he have to spend time with adam daily even a few minutes is enough. i can take it all, his ‘i’m toooo busy’ excuses, but adam is different… adam is always daddy’s child, even from the first time the nurses showed him to me after birth, i always know that adam is daddy’s child.

well, that’s it. my acing backside story and the reason behind it.
maybe i’ll write something more fun to read else next time.