Rumah No. 4

Adam Satu Ramadhan

2011-08-02T14:26:00.001+08:00

Tahun ni Adam 6 tahun dah. Dah mula kena belajar puasa. Setakat hari ni dah 2 hari bangun sahur. Food dia paling senang. Nasi putih dan kicap. Lepas makan terus sambung tidur balik. Macam skill Mama dia masa kat hostel dulu T_T

Dah bagitau Adam. Puasa tak boleh makan dan minum di siang hari. Pastu tak boleh masukkan jari atau apa-apa benda lah dalam mulut.

Petang semalam berborak dengan Adam pasal puasa, macam lebih kurang cam ni lah bunyi nya:

Mama: Adam puasa tak hari ni?
Adam: Puasa. Tapi kan Mama, tadi Adam terkencing sebab tak tahan sangat dah.
Mama: Laaa. Kencing tak apalah. Tak batal puasa. Berak pun tak pe.
Adam: Lala cakap tak boleh kencing ngan berak?! Kentut pun tak boleh.
Mama: T_T

Lala memang suka cakap merepek tapi Adam percaya la pulak. Lol

Dah la pagi ni Lala bangun pagi, tanpa tangisan pastu terus duduk kat meja makan. Nak bersahur katanya. Sampai keras perut Gen ngan aku gelak. Aku tatau dia memang nak bersahur atau dia mengigau atau dia memang merepek saja pagi-pagi.

Tapi dari cara dia amik pinggan nasi dan duduk tunggu aku letak nasi, aku rasa memang dia nak bersahur ^^

Salam Ramadhan dari Rumah No. 4

Menembak Masalah di Telefon Aku

2011-07-07T08:54:00.001+08:00

Iphone is giving me headache. Now apparently I cannot download any apps that is more than 20Mb. It will suspend downloading and appear like this

See that streetfighter guy? I bought this apps for USD0.99 but still I cannot get it fully downloaded. So then I tried to download it via the web using itunes. But guess what, my pc and iphone refuse to sync. So now the streetfighter guy is still 'waiting' *sigh*.

Then I got irritated after a few attempts they still refuse to sync so I cleared all the apps from my iphone.

Adam menangis game dia tak ada. Mama deleted everyting. Lol. Mama macam marahkan nyamuk, bakar kelambu. Ewah. Now teaching peribahasa to my son.

After few days, I installed all the games back to my iphone. Hmmm that does sounds redundant. My iphone. Doesnt it? Ok but that is a bit offtrack. Haha.

Once I reinstall all the apps, Adam membebel, because all the games are now in alphebetical order and his game is now at page 7 so jauh sikit nak scroll. Adam said 'Ishh Mama ni, kemas la sikit, game sepah-sepah' T_T

Maybe iphone3 is outdated kot. Maybe I have to start to pancing Gen for a new one. Even if my birthday is in November, there's no harm to have an early start, right?

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Semoga berbahagia hingga ke anak cucu.

2011-02-23T14:42:00.001+08:00

Kadang-kadang dalam hidup kita, tiba-tiba kita kena buat keputusan yang drastik. Yang mana sudah tak boleh nak dielakkan. Selalunya selagi boleh, kita pertahankan apa yang kita ada. Tapi bila kita tak tahu apa lagi yang sebenarnya nak kita pertahankan, mungkin itu masa yang paling baik untuk kita berhenti mempertahankannya.

Aku terganggu dengan perceraian Ayahngah dan Makngah bulan lepas. Setelah hampir 40 tahun perkahwinan, 14 orang anak dan 30 cucu... Semuanya hancur berderai.

Yang paling menyakitkan hati aku adalah kata-kata dari Gen yang seakan menyalahkan Makngah kerana tak membenarkan Ayahngah kawin lagi. Aduh! Itukah kata-kata yang aku harapkan dari mulut seorang suami?

Betul Makngah patut bertoleransi memandangkan dia dah tak bernafsu setelah monopause, mungkin dia patut cari sendiri calon isteri ke-2 suaminya. Tapi patut ke Gen cakap, Makngah patut bersyukur sekurang-kurangnya Ayahngah balik rumah mereka setiap malam?

Manakah tanggungjawab suami? Tak kasihan ke melihat isterinya yang 14 kali mengandung dan melahirkan anaknya? Belum campur yang keguguran. Isteri yang berhenti kerja untuk menjaga anak-anaknya. Yang mengikat bajet dan perut atas gaji suami seorang guru. Kemudian bersabar pula saat suami tak bergaji kerana menyambung pelajaran. Buat kuih, jual kuih untuk tanggung anak-anak belajar.

Wajarkah? Wajarkah Ayahngah lupakan semua itu atas alasan Allah yang memberinya nafsu, bukan dia yang minta jadi begitu.

Andai dapat diundur masa, waktu Makngah masih muda dan cantik. Sewaktu Ayahngah masih susah sambung belajar, patut tinggalkan saja, cari suami lain yang mampu menyaranya dunia dan akhirat.

Kita pula... Apa yang kita pertahankan selama ini?

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Kadang-kadang

2010-12-11T01:52:00.001+08:00

Kadang-kadang aku rasa macam aku bukan mak yang baik. Risau. Bolehkan aku mendidik anak-anak jadi orang yang berguna. Jadi orang baik-baik, sedangkan aku pun tak la baik sangat.

Bila aku marah dan jerit-jerit, aku rasa Hannah sangat pandai immitate aku sebab bila dia marah, dia akan jerit-jerit macam orang gila. Hahahah. Sejak tu aku dah tak jerit-jerit dah. Aku mula kontrol pernafasan. Hahahah maksud aku, kontrol perasaan.

Sekarang kalau Adam, Hannah dan Nadia bergaduh berebut atau apa pun, aku guna kaedah Masa Keluar (time out). Sepatutnya yang bergaduh diasingkan dan diberitahu salah dia. Tapi kaedah aku lain sikit.

Aku yang masuk bilik dan kunci pintu dari dalam. Hehehh.

Kedengaran la tiga beradik tu menangis memujuk Mama keluar sambil mengaku silap dan janji tak buat lagi. Hahahahh. Senang sikit cara ni. Tak adalah aku naik hangin kan?

Aku rasa aku sedang belajar macam mana nak jadi mak yang baik. Sebab nak jadi mak yang baik tu bukan datang dengan sendiri, bukan diwarisi. Kalau mak aku dapat didik anak-anak dia masuk universiti, belum tentu aku dapat lakukan perkara yang sama. Kan?

Tapi mula-mula sekali kena belajar memasak.

Puas hati kan bila tengok diorang makan sampai licin.

Lepas tu bertambah lagi.

Rasa macam confuse. Betul ke aku masak sedap? Atau diorang makan sebab takut aku masuk bilik dan kunci pintu lagi? (-_-)"

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Hadiah Hari Jadi

2010-12-10T13:18:00.001+08:00

Suatu pagi yang aman damai dan tenteram di hari jadian yours truly. Sedang memandu tiba-tiba cermin belakang pecah! Yang terpacul dari mulut ialah, 'what the hal?'

Keluar dari kereta dan budak motor yang lalu cakap, 'kak helmet terpelanting' (sambil tunjuk helmet biru tepi jalan)

Fuhh! Nasib baik tak ada kepala wehh! Rupanya budak motor langgar kereta belakang kereta aku dan helmetnya terpelanting kena cermin belakang aku.

Sememangnya hadiah hari jadian yang paling bermakna. Tak boleh claim insurance sebab semua cermin tak pernah diinsuranskan. Nak saman motor? Ntah hidup ntah tak mamat tu.

Tapi kan kalau korang kenal motor ni atau lagi bagus kalau korang kenal tuan punya motor ni, bagitau aku eh?

Tapi masa buat repot kat balai polis, Jan call wish birthday dan nyanyikan lagu korea kat aku T_T tak sampai hati nak bgtau dia pasal accident ni.

So, Jan dearie... You still owe me that song! LOL

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Ponteng Kerja

2010-06-10T20:40:00.001+08:00

Hari Selasa lepas ponteng kerja sebab melayan seorang wanita mengandung yang mengidam nak makan keropok lekor Kemaman. T_T tapi bukan saya yang mengandung ya! Cuma nak jelaskan supaya tiada yang salah faham.

Kami bertolak pukul 4 petang. Mencari gerai keropok lekor yang rupa-rupanya sudah tutup hingga akhirnya terpaksa berpuas hati dengan gerai kapal layar.

Kalau bos selalu bercuti lagi, mudahlah aktiviti ponteng kerja ini dilakukan. (-_-")

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Sebelum Jadi Mak

2010-05-10T12:47:00.004+08:00

Sebelum jadi Mak

Aku tak pernah terjatuh sebab pijak mainan

Atau terlupa lirik lagu ‘air pasang dalam’

Aku tak pernah kisah
Mainan tu selamat ke tak

Atau pokok tu beracun atau berduri
Atau playground itu bersih atau tak

Sebelum jadi Mak
Aku tak pernah kena muntah

Kena berak
Kena gigit atau

Kena kencing

Aku juga boleh berfikir tentang diri sendiri

Dan tidur lena sepanjang malam sehingga ke pagi

Sebelum jadi Mak
Mana pernah pegang baby yang berusia 2 minggu yang sedang menangis

Supaya doktor boleh ambil darah kat kaki dia untuk test demam kuning

Atau supaya doktor boleh suntik imunisasi kat peha dia

Aku tak pernah menangis bila tengok baby menangis
Apatah lagi bila tengok orang buang baby

Dan tak pernah rasa begitu gembira bila tengok dia senyum

Macam dah tak ada apa-apa yang lain lagi penting dari senyuman dan gelak tawa dia

Sebelum jadi Mak
Aku tak pernah berjaga tengah malam
Sebab dia sakit
Tapi semasa dia sihat aku berjaga malam juga

Semata-mata nak tengok dia tidur
Atau risau sebab dia belum terjaga nak minum susu

Dan periksa pula sebab takut kalau tiba-tiba nafas dia terhenti tanpa aku sedari

Sebelum jadi Mak

Aku tak pernah pegang baby yang sedang tidur

dan tak nak letak dia di tilam
Rasa nak pegang dia sampai bila-bila
Tak jemu-jemu

Aku tak pernah rasa hati aku retak seribu

bila aku tak boleh hilangkan rasa sakit dia

Aku pun tak sangka

Dia yang sebegitu kecil
Meninggalkan kesan yang sebegitu besar dalam hidup aku

Aku juga tak pernah tahu aku boleh sayang dia dengan sepenuh jiwa dan raga tanpa noktah

Sebelum jadi Mak
Aku tak pernah sangka
Hati aku bukan milik aku
Hati aku lekat padanya
Sewaktu aku melahirkannya

Sebelum jadi Mak
Tak pernah tahu kehebatan
Kegembiraan
Kasih sayang
Sakit kepala (haha!)
Atau kepuasan bila jadi Mak

Dan yang paling aku tak sangka
Aku sangat suka jadi seorang Mak

Dan kepada-Nya aku paling bersyukur.

Gen cakap Iphone je canggih....!

2010-04-27T10:59:00.001+08:00

Dalam makna yang lain dia nak kata aku tak canggih la kan. Huhu. Atas sedaya upaya aku cuba buat entri baru dah update straight from iph.

Tapi macam mana nak upload gambar yer? Cakap Gen betul. Aku memang tak canggih (-_-")

Letupan Dari Masa Silam (Blast From the Past)

2010-04-26T11:13:00.003+08:00

Tersedak bila tengok gambar yang di upload oleh seorang sepupu di Facebook. Entah macam mana aku wujud dalam gambar ni, aku pun tak tahu. Memang aku tak suka bergambar masa kecil dulu sebab aku ni tak comel lansung (-_-“)

Semuanya kerana spek tebal dan rambut potongan tempurung kelapa. Aku memang tak pandai nak bergaya dan lansung tidak kelihatan comel macam sepupu yang lain. Mungkin sebab tu aku rajin belajar. Bahahah. Tipu! Tak rajin pun. Dalam kelas pun markah cuma selalu cukup makan. Nasib baik lulus. Setakat ni, aku masih belum di tag pada gambar ini di FB. Mungkin mereka pun tak tahu itu gambar aku T_T

Cuba tengok gambar ni dan teka mana aku, wehh.

Kalau Tak Dapat Kalahkan Mereka, Sertai Mereka!

2010-03-18T11:48:00.004+08:00

Kami ikut Gen masuk hutan di Sungai Lembing. Jauh jugak perjalanannya. Dari jalan tar hinggalah jalan batu kerikil dan kemudiannya meredah hutan barulah sampai ke tempat perkelahan tersebut.

Pagi-pagi angkut sahaja budak-budak yang masih belum mandi masuk dalam kereta. Jimat masa.

Semua ambil tempat masing-masing. Oh ya, Gen sudah terpaksa melepaskan Hilux pergi sebab anak kami ramai. Tak muat. (-_-)'' Sekarang pakai Land Cruiser (B) hahahah for buruk. Kebaikannya ada tujuh tempat duduk. Jadi semua tak payah berebut-rebut. Tapi sekejap je. Lepas tu semua pun berebut nak duduk di depan dengan aku dan Gen.

Seronok tengok muka budak-budak yang tak mandi pagi nih.

Ambil gambar tempat berkelah. Hahahh itu gambar ibu mertua kakak aku yang malu-malu kucing. Oh ya, makanan pun di beli untuk jumat masa. Alasan. Sebenarnya aku malas masak.

Sungai memang cetek dan tak merisaukan untuk budak-budak mandi. Hannah memang suka main pasir. Di belakang Hannah adalah anak saudara aku, Arif Budak Lelaki Hari Jadi (Birthday Boy) yang aku janjikan berpiknik di Sunga Sungai Lembing.

Adam pula dalam cubaan membuat benteng pasir untuk tangkap ikan.

Nadia takut air sebab dia dah tergolek masuk air kerana silap imbangkan diri. Selepas itu dia asyik berkepit dengan Gen. Tengok selesa saja dia duduk atas perut Gen. Hahahahha...

Gunting Rambut, Lagi?!

2010-03-16T14:54:00.003+08:00

Bawa kanak-kanak riang pergi gunting rambut. Kedai Gunting Rambut Rileks tu tutup. Jadi, Hannah pun kena gunting rambut di kedai gunting rambut lelaki yang sama macam Adam.

Adam selepas gunting rambut. Gaya macam macho la tu. Hahahah

Hannah dengan muka cuak 'Mama duduk dekat Lala yer?'

Selesa pula, mungkin Hannah sudah mahu tertidur.

Berposing sementara menunggu Hannah gunting rambut.

Nadia cuba buat gaya 'peace' yang tak jadi. Habis semua jari keluar. Hahahh. Nasib baik semuanya berperangai baik-baik belaka. Lain kali boleh bawa teman Mama gunting rambut pula.

Happy Birthday to a Special You

2010-03-15T10:07:00.003+08:00

March the thirteenth. It’s your birthday. You are the one that I love with all my heart. But I’m not with you. I cannot hug you and kiss your cheek and exclaims ‘Happy Birthday!’ on the top of my lungs. I miss you so much.

I hope you had a really happy birthday. I hope your mom cooked something special for you. She nags and complains a lot but she loves you so much. You may not know this but she is really proud of you.

I hope your friends throw a big party for you at the Pizza Hut (or is it Domino’s?) and this time I won’t be late because I’m not coming at all. And I won’t sulk or being moody because I’m not there. I hope you had a great time with them all.

I hope you went to Red Box and sing your Janji Bidadari song and I won’t be there to laugh at the cheesy lyrics. I will not spoil your birthday by singing the ultimately cool KRU songs. I’m not sad…. I just had tears in my eyes.

But they don’t know you like I do. You are a special girl with great heart. You are my angel. And I really hope I can hear you sing that Janji Bidadari song, again.

Happy Birthday, Special You!

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PMS

2010-03-12T16:32:00.002+08:00

Saya bukan PMS yang itu. Saya mengalami Proud Momma's Syndrome. Hahahh. Iya betul. Hannah bukanlah rajin macam Adam malahan selalunya buku latihan dia banyak yang tak siap dan kerja separuh-separuh. Selebihnya banyak conteng. Katanya cikgu suruh conteng macam tu (?)

Semalam saya suruh juga dia buat kerja rumah yang telah banyak ketinggalan. Huruf d yang tunggang terbalik. Mula-mula tulis d, betul. Kemudian dia tulis b, kemudian p dan ada juga yang bulatnya di tengah. Jangan tanya saya huruf apa itu T_T

Saya padam setiap kali salah dan suruh dia buat semula sehingga dia protes dan kemudian dia sambung semula sebab dijanjikan gula-gula (-_-)''

Kemudian sambung huruf e.

Selesai kerja rumah, saya bagi gula-gula dan benarkan dia sambung main Play-Doh.

Kemudian dia datang semula dan tunjuk kertas ini kepada saya.

Rupanya dia pergi praktis tulis huruf e.

Saya sungguh terharu. T_T. PMS betullah!

Saya tidak ada kena mengena dengan Kenyataan Akhbar yang dikeluarkan oleh Presiden Malaysian Bar bertarikh 18 Februari, 2010

2010-02-20T10:59:00.005+08:00

Bismillahirahman nir Rahim

Dengan hormatnya saya merujuk kepada Kenyataan Akhbar oleh Presiden Malaysian Bar Council bertarikh 18 Februari, 2010.

Memang saya seorang ahli Malaysian Bar Council (MBC) tetapi saya tidak ada kena mengena dengan kenyataan akhbar tersebut dan saya tidak boleh berdiam diri melihat beliau membuat kenyataan tersebut tanpa mengambilkira pandangan dan sensitiviti semua ahli, terutamanya kami yang beragama Islam.

Terdapat perbezaan di antara hukuman sebat di bawah Penal Code dan undang-undang Syariah. Orang kafir mungkin tak tahu hal ini.

MBC tidak pada mana-mana keadaan mewakili pengamal undang-undang Syariah yang beramal di Mahkamah Syariah.

Mengikut pengetahuan saya, (kalau salah tolong perbetulkan) Al-Quran Surah Israa': Ayat 32 menyuruh orang Islam menjauhi zina kerana ianya adalah pintu segala kejahatan. Kalau fikir logik akal pun, seks bebas, zina itu perosak keturunan, menyebabkan gejala buang anak, pengguguran, malahan memungkinkan jangkitan AIDS dan HIV (setakat ini 16 juta pengidap di seluruh dunia) yang mungkin melenyapkan manusia dari bumi Allah ini.

Saya bukan ustazah tapi sebagai seorang ibu, saya tak sanggup lagi melihat anak sekecil 4 hari dibuang dan dibakar dalam tong sampah. Mungkin wanita itu dirogol tanpa kerelaannya, saya tidak mahu menghakiminya, tapi kenapa bayi itu perlu dibunuh dan dibakar?

Betul kata ustaz saya, kita semua kena kembali ke jalan Allah, malahan hukuman sebat memang patut dijalankan kepada penzina dan peminum arak itu kerana ia memang pintu yang membuka banyak lagi kejahatan.

Oleh itu, kenyataan MBC (yang tidak mewakili saya dan beberapa kawan-kawan yang lain) yang lantangnya menyatakan hukuman sebat ini tidak berperikemanusiaan (macamlah buang anak itu sangat berperikemanusiaan?) dan meminta hukuman sebat ini dimansuhkan dan menyatakan ianya dipersetujui oleh semua ahli MBC adalah TIDAK BENAR dan saya tidak ada kena-mengena dengan kenyataan beliau tersebut.

Sebab itulah mesyuarat agung MBC selalu terbatal dan untuk mencapai korum pun amat sukar kerana sukar untuk kami menerima ideologi mereka yang nyata bercanggah dengan ajaran Islam. Saya sendiri memang tidak pernah menghadirinya.

Bosan saya dengan mereka yang melabel diri sebagai wakil kami yang mengeluarkan kenyataan sesuka hati.

Hannah and School

2010-02-01T10:53:00.003+08:00

Hannah went to the same school with Adam and despite their different ages, the teachers put them in a same class because Hannah will start crying once they are separated. Both of them will be in Adam’s class for the morning session and then Hannah’s class for after break session.

I think it is hilarious because they barely can stand each other outside school and Adam is irritated having Hannah in his class because Hannah will be playing at the back while the class is in session. Hahahh…

So early in the morning, when I want to get her ready for school, she will say “Mama, hari ni Lala nak pergi sekolah (kelas) Adam” and she will take her bath, get dressed without a fuss when I agreed. But she will still make me carry her all the way to the bathroom and back to the room. I don’t mind but my hips have been protesting silently because she weights 14kg now.

Last week, she randomly say ‘api neraka’ and I asked her ‘api neraka tu apa, kakak?’ She said, ‘api neraka tu macam obomen la, Mama’ and put her hands up and do the Ultraman’s firing position. Lol.

I told Gen about the api neraka incident. Gen said it was in the doa that she recites and the full version would be ‘dan selamatkanlah kami dari siksaan api neraka’. With that, we then find out that Hannah can now recite doa tidur, doa makan, doa penerang hati, doa masuk tandas and few others. She will also recite all this doa in the toilet while she was doing her big thing. However, she will not recite the doa before meals or before sleeping. Hmmmm.

We were at my parents house for the weekend and we make Hannah recite every doa that she had learn (proud parents syndrome) first to her Tok, then to Aki, later to Mak Teh when Hannah finally say,

Hannah: Bismillah Bismillah Bismillah
Mama: Kenapa kakak baca doa macam tu?
Hannah: Mulut Lala ni dah rosak dah sebab baca doa banyak sangat. Haaa, cuba Mama tengok Bismillah Bismillah Bismillah. Haaa, kan dah rosak?

Sabar je lah, kan? Lols.

Kalau Sudah Beli Mesin Jahit, Kenalah Belajar Menjahit Pula

2010-01-19T11:04:00.006+08:00

Sudah habis bayar Matsuyuki tapi persoalannya sekarang, bilakah aku akan mula menjahit. Bermula dari tahap sifar (zero) aku nak jadi seorang hero. Hahahahah, pasang benang pun masih gagal dan seringkali sangkut dan putus semasa menjahit. T_T

Tapi aku ni keras hati, tak mahu mengalah. Sebenarnya aku paling takut Gen cakap 'I told you, so!' kat aku (-_-''). Jadi aku mulakan aktiviti aku dengan mencari meja jahit yang sesuai. Hahahh.. Nampak sangat ianya satu alasan untuk pergi shopink lagi! Mejanya kecil sahaja tapi aku beli rak kasut pula sebab akan dapat harga murah kalau beli ia bersama. Atau mungkin dia adik beradik yang tak mahu berpisah. Apalaga yang aku merepek ini?

Aku risau Gen marah sebab beli perabot sebab kami janji tidak mahu beli perabot sebab mungkin nak pindah duduk di Lot 50610 nanti. Tapi aku beli juga. Aku fikir, rak kasut memang perlu, kan? Lagipun nanti boleh bawa pindah. Haha. Sentiasa fikir logik, mungkin tak tercapai akalmu, Gen.

Aku angkut meja jahit dan rak kasut ini sendiri naik CBK, memang muat tapi tayar hampir kempis semata-mata sebab takut Gen bising. Tapi akhirnya sampai rumah terpaksa juga minta tolong Gen angkat keluar kereta. Macam tak logik aku nak keluarkan dan pasang sendiri, kan?

Lupa pula hendak ambil gambar setelah kedua adik beradik ini siap diassemble.

Tapi intro sahaja dah panjang, sebenarnya aku nak bercerita tentang sekolah menjahit. Hahahah. Betul, tak tipu. Aku dah mendaftar di Epal, dalam Megamall dan sambil belajar, boleh jalan shopink juga. Nampak sangat ada alasan dan kepentingan tersendiri.

Lambang kasih sayang yang tiada tandingan? Haha, cheesy eh?

Kotak Permulaan, Starter Box.

Suasana dalam kelas. Makcik-makcik ini semuanya pro woh! Kotak bunga-bunga itu adalah projek jahitan yang kedua.

Hasil aku menjahit pada hari pertama. Sarung kusyen dengan bunga patchwork didepan. Mula-mula Cikgu puji sebab cepat siap tapi kemudian bila dia keluarkan pembaris, kantoi tidak sama (-_-"), mungkin tak boleh masuk kusyen.

Tapi Cikgu kata, aku boleh beli bahan Projek Kedua, bakul serbaguna tersebut.

Nice eh? Kalau siap dan ikut ukuran, barulah nice.

Ada cara-cara menjahit juga di sertakan, mungkin kali ni aku boleh buat betul-betul dan bukannya buat cepat-cepat. Hahahah.

Endesor

2010-01-15T16:22:00.002+08:00

Macam tu la lebih kurang Adam dan Hannah sebut dinasour. Sudah selalu aku betulkan tapi masih salah juga. Tak apalah asalkan aku dan Gen faham maksud mereka. Gambar dah lama, hampir 2 bulan lepas semasa kami tengok pameran Dino-Trek di Yayasan Pahang.

Itu aku dengan versi comot dan muka tak siap sebab Gen cakap aku ni lambat bersiap. Tanpa contact lense dan bedak asas dan nasib baik sempat gosok tudung dan pakai lipstick. Mungkin selepas ini Gen malu nak bawa aku keluar jalan-jalan. T_T

Di bahagian akhir pameran, Nadia dah menangis sebab dia takut tengok dinasour tu bergaduh dan anak-anak dinasour yang bertempiaran lari (mechanical). Muka Nadia juga tak keruan dan tak mahu lepaskan pelukan sampai kena pegang kuat-kuat untuk ambil snap ni.

Hannah tu macam berani tapi sebenarnya dia pun cuak juga dan tak lepas pandang tempat dinasour bergaduh tu sebab dia takut dinasour tu terlepas ke luar. Hahahahah.

Cerita di Suatu Hujung Minggu

2009-12-24T15:48:00.006+08:00

Sudah lama buat rancangan untuk berjalan-jalan ke Kuala Lumpur dan berjumpa semula kawan-kawan lama masa belajar dulu tapi baru minggu lepas berjaya.

Paling aku tak sangka semuanya sangat gembira juga untuk meluangkan masa bersama aku. For that, I am really thankful and I had a great weekends ever. Sayaaaaaaaaaaang semua kawan-kawan. \(^_^)/

Mula-mula sekali aku berjumpa dengan kawan-kawan seperjuangan (haha!) semasa A-Level pada 10 tahun yang lepas. Terasa macam tua tapi bila tengok gambar ni... rasa macam kami masih lagi sama happy seperti dulu.

Makan malam di Tony Romas (Aw! Sangat sedap ribs itu!) kemudian sambung pula di Paddington. Haha memang buruk lantak. Tapi kami tak peduli sebab bukan selalu jumpa pun kan. (L-R: Aku, Mar, Nurul, Dina, Yong, Zaza, Eppa dan Dida yang duduk). Lepas tu balik lambat la kan sebab sibuk nak borak. Nasib baik Nurul hantar balik sampai lobby hotel. Sayang jugak dia kat aku. Hihi.

Keesokan harinya lunch bersama kawan-kawan LLB(Hons).

Aku suka gambar ni.

Yang ini pun aku suka juga... Nenet (Shima) bersama dengan cicitnyer.

This is us, (L-R: Jan, Aya, Liza, Shima dan aku yang duduk serta Nadia yang tidur). Jan cakap senang la bawak Nadia ni, dia makan makan makan pastu tidur. Hahahah. Sebenarnya tak macam tu pun... mungkin sebab abang dan kakak tak ada... jadi dia hilang punca nak buat apa. Hahahahahh.

Hari berikutnya Zoo Negara bersama Nomy. Sepatutnya ada Juita sekali tapi dia kansel sebab sibuk menguruskan perjalanan umrah dia keesokan harinya. Tak apa, Juita ada hearing di Kuantan Januari 2010, nanti boleh jumpa lagi. Insya Allah.

Gen dengan Popeq. Huhu... pasal Gen tu... erm korang janganlah panggil dia Gen sebab tu cumalah nama manja dia dalam blog aku ni. (-_-'')

Aku dengan Nomy duduk dekat sebab senang nak borak. Hahhaah. Pada hal hari-hari pun borak thru YM.

Aku rasa gambar candid ni kelakar sebab Haikal macam main sorok-sorok. Alanis pulak sibuk minum air sampai kembung pipi. Pastu Nadia cam pelik tengok Alanis. Rambut Nadia pula dah serabai kepanasan terus jadi kerinting. Adam pulak macam tak ikhlas je nak bergambar. Hikhikk. Nanti kita buat family day pulak yer...

Yang ini pun kelakar juga sebab dua-dua sibuk tengok aku, bukannya tengok camera Nomy. Hihi.

Ini semua adalah gambar-gambar yang aku grab dari FB kawan-kawan. Gambar hp aku nanti akan di upload kan.

Sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaag semua.

Supaya aku termimpi-mimpi....

2009-12-15T13:12:00.003+08:00

Ada kawan aku yang baik hati hantar ni. Tapi sebelum pos dia dah bagitau.

Apa ya? Rupanya macam tau tapi tak pasti lah...

Belek ikut belakang....

Hahahahahah. Terima kasih Nomy sebab sengaja nak buat aku termimpi-mimpi.

Tapi isi dalamnya tak dapat lagi.... Sementara tu, aku tekan-tekan board plastik ni dulu lah, ok?

An Entry Without a Relevant Title

2009-12-12T10:58:00.007+08:00

Adam with cuz, Pyan who is actually older than him but smaller in size.

Pyan with Cik Su.

Mama and Adam

Adam n cuzs.

Nadia on a kid's coaster.

Adam and Hannah ready to my cuz's wedding.

My kids are getting bigger eh? Maybe I should update regularly now.

Geram

2009-11-12T10:10:00.003+08:00

Kenapa kalau anak aku sakit demam tak sihat, dia kata aku tak reti jaga anak tapi bila aku aku sihat montel debab, dia kata babysitter tu pandai jaga anak aku?

Yang paling aku geram pun, kenapa aku ni kisah sangat apa dia cakap?

One Week

2009-11-02T16:05:00.004+08:00

Sakit mata yang keterlaluan menyebabkan saya tidak boleh memakai kanta pelekap lagi. Semuanya masih belum selesai sejak Aidilfitri lalu. Maryam pula kata, 'Asyik berair sahaja mata Kak Ana, pergilah cek doktor'. Mungkin kata hati dia yang sebenar, 'takut nanti buta pula'. Kejam! Pandai-pandai saya reka kata hati dia.

Minggu lepas saya pergi jumpa doktor mata sambil ambil cuti sehari sebab banyak ujian yang dibuat kerana doktor risau mata saya mengalami kecairan atau mungkin kebocoran? Sila maafkan tatabahasa doktor berbangsa Cina itu. Saya pun tak faham. Kalau ada rajah, pelan dan bola mata besar seperti dalam bilik doktor mungkin saya boleh terangkan.

Doktor juga kata semuanya kerana saya telah hampir 12 tahun pakai kanta pelekap dan sekarang mungkin daya tahan mata saya sudah tiada lagi. Doktor bagi ubat titis untuk hilangkan alahan. Setelah seminggu, saya sudah boleh pakai kanta pelekap semula!

Sungguh tidak serik! Tapi saya pakai kanta pelekap pakai buang harian. Hanya pakai seminggu sekali apabila hendak berdating dan bergossip hangat dengan rakan-rakan seperjuangan. Bagus, kan? Cuma harga yang tidak berapa nak bagus T_T

Tambahan pula adanya jualan gudang ekstrem sebab Parkson Ria di Kuantan Plaza nak tutup! Harga yang bagus tapi poket tidak bagus ya! (-_-") Comforter set Jean Perry diskaun sehingga 70% WTF! (ie perlu dibaca sebagai 'Where's The Father!?') sebab perlu duit tambahan untuk membeli barang.

Gen berkursus Selasa hingga Jumaat di De' Rhu dan kemudiannya Jumaat hingga Ahad di Seri Malaysia. Walaupun dua-dua tempat di Kuantan, tapi dia tak balik atas sebab ada kelas sampai pukul satu pagi. Kelas karaoke session kah? Memang saya tidak puas hati sebab minggu sebelumnya dia pergi masuk hutan off-road di Bentong. Sudah empat hujung minggu Gen tiada di rumah, ya.

Hari Sabtu bawa anak-anak pergi jalan-jalan sendirian.

Rasa macam nak beli topi Jingle Bells ini tapi terasa rugi pula RM10.

Mainan Adam, figurine Ben10. Patung Diamondhead tu Hannah buat patah dalam masa 24 jam selepas beli.

Hannah yang mulanya pilih set berkebun tapi dia tanya, 'Mama boleh letak pasir tak dalam (pasu) ni?' Saya jawab tak boleh. Terus dia ambil mainan lain.

Nadia yang angkut semua permainan bawa keluar tapi tak tahu nak beli apa.

Kesedihan anak-anak yang terubat. Kesedihan saya pula bagaimana?

Gen belikan set periuk CNI ini untuk saya. Sedihkah? Gembirakah? Atau perlukah saya peluk periuk ini di malam hari sewaktu dia tiada?

Parti Tupperware: Marah atau Tidak?

2009-10-12T15:55:00.004+08:00

Gen kemaruk beli Tupperware. Lieza cakap, 'bestnya husband Ana ni,' dan Diana pula cakap, ' Tok laki aku dah banned beli Tupperware dah,' dan ternyata mereka berdua sangat jeles dengan aku. Hahahahh. Tapi itu part one.

Tapi yang ramai tak tahu, Gen belikan Tupperware ni semua sebab dia tak nak aku marah sebab Gen kerja pada hari Ahad lepas. Keluar rumah pukul 11 pagi. Balik pada pukul 12 tengah malam. Hmmm kerja apa sampai pukul 12 ya? Tak tahu lah kan.

Untuk mengubati hati yang lara, malam tadi aku bawa Adam, Hannah dan Nadia ke Kuantan Parade, makan KFC dan jalan-jalan. Alhamdulillah semuanya well-behaved sebab aku dah saiko diorang, 'kalau nak keluar dengan Mama, semua orang kena jadi budak baik'. Hahahah. Sebenarnya kesian juga sebab main-main kat rumah saja, diorang bosan, kan...

Pergi melawat Noni di Matta Fair sekali. Best juga kalau dapat bercuti nanti. Hmmmm...

Ok berbalik pada soalan asal. Tupperware vs ditinggalkan sendirian pada hari Ahad bersama anak2. Marah atau tidak?

True Story: Retail Therapy Is Bad For Your Health

2009-10-07T10:36:00.005+08:00

A good bird told me that a retail therapy is good to lessen your stress. Erm, suddenly - saya rasa saya mahu menulis dalam bahasa Melayu.

Seekor burung yang baik hati memberitahu saya terapi beli-belah adalah baik untuk menangani tekanan. Oleh itu, saya telah mengamalkan terapi ini dan membeli beberapa barangan yang kemudiannya ternyata menggembirakan hati saya.

Tambahan pula waktu bulan Ramadhan, saya juga membeli beberapa barangan untuk sambutan Aidilfitri. (-_-“). Boleh dikatakan macam orang hilang akal, membeli barang dan (sengaja) lupa untuk memikirkan barang tersebut adalah keperluan atau untuk berlebih-lebihan.

Sewaktu sambutan Aidilfitri, tiada lansung ingatan tentang barang-barang yang telah dibeli menjengah kotak ingatan saya, Sehinggalah hari semalam, saya menerima bil Mastercard dan Visa yang suatu waktu dulu adalah rakan karib saya.

Rasa macam nak pitam bila melihat jumlah kedua-dua bil tersebut adalah hampir mencecah RM4,700 dan jumlah tersebut adalah untuk satu bulan sahaja kerana bil bulan sebelumnya telah dibayar habis.

Senyap sekejap, cuba mengingati apakah barang yang telah dibeli (T_T). Tak berjaya. Mungkin lebih patut fikir cara untuk menanganinya.

Pertama, telefon syarikat kad kredit dan minta supaya jumlah tersebut boleh dibayar secara ansuran. Bolehkah? Tak cuba tak tahu, kan.

Kedua, telefon sugar daddy kesayangan (-_-“) minta simpati dan bantuan kewangan disertakan dengan kata-kata ucapan, ‘Baby, I love you,’ Hahahah mesti berbulu telinga Gen dengar.

Ketiga, keluarkan duit simpanan.

Argh!

Parental Guide Part 14

2009-10-06T10:16:00.004+08:00

Hahahah korang perasan tak kalau edisi Parental Guide ni numbering Part dia tak pernah betul. Macam sesuka hati dan ikut mood sendiri aje.

Topik pada hari ini adalah, 'Macam mana nak memasak sambil menjaga tiga orang kanak-kanak riang secara bersendirian'. Oh panjang pulak tajuk Parental Guide Part 14 ni. Tapi tak apalah, sila teruskan dengan pembacaan anda.

Selalu kalau nak memasak, Adam, Hannah dan Nadia mesti sibuk bersama kat dapur. Bukannya tak suka diorang masuk dapur tapi masalahnya kalau dah masuk dapur tu, banyak sangat aktiviti tambahan diorang seperti menolong mengemas dapur yang memang sudah bersepah supaya menjadi lebih bersepah lagi.

Taktik pertama adalah memasang Channel Cartoon Network sebagai distraction supaya diorang melekat depan tv. Adam bolehlah terima taktik tersebut tapi Hannah cepat bosan. Nadia pula memang tak heran dengan tv. Taktik pertama gagal.

Bila dah masuk dapur, distract diorang dengan makanan pula. Selalunya dengan sweets lah, cakap macam ni, 'Mama bagi makan coklat ni, pergi main kat depan. Kalau masuk dapur, nanti Mama ambil balik.' Hahahha... Selalunya berkesan tapi atas sebab kesihatan, tak boleh buat selalu. Taktik kedua is not healthy.

Taktik ketiga adalah dengan menyediakan aktiviti di dapur bersama-sama. Sambil memasak, bagi diorang colouring book dan pensil warna. Macam berjaya lah, sempat aku memasak kejap.

Bersungguh-sungguh mengadap colouring book.

Setakat ni masih ok lagi, boleh terus memasak.

Adam marah Hannah sebab mewarna diluar kawasan.

Hannah dengan edisi lepas mandi dan tidak mahu sikat rambut.

Nadia yang sudah sikat rambut tapi tak tahu kenapa masih lagi comot T_T. Ini adalah muka nak menangis sebab Adam dan Hannah tak bagi dia mewarna sebab dia conteng-conteng. Taktik ketiga pun gagal juga kerana diorang boikot Nadia. Tapi at least masa tu aku dah sempat masak.

Taktik ketiga disahkan gagal apabila aku tengok ada hasil kerjatangan yang halus atas lantai dapur. Konfem kerja Nadia.

Not a Love Story.

2009-10-05T14:51:00.003+08:00

It is not a love story. It is actually a story of life after love. How can we actually cope with the loss of loved ones. No, I wont tell you the plot, you can wiki-ed it later because I'm not good at teling stories. But I can tell you that I really love the the movie. Some criticise that the movie is unreal (it is fiction, duh) and it didn't even won any award. But it really touch my heart and I think it will touch yours too.

I love the movie even more than the book and I think they adapted it nicely and OMG Gerard Butler is so hot! I don't mind watching him again and again. He was the great King Leonidas from 300 and even when he is a savage warrior, he is so dem sexy. Hihaa.

Hillary Swank potrays Holly greatly. Her facial expression alone can make you cry. She had this funny weird face that make you want to laugh everytime she laugh, its contagious. And her wardrobes are totally to die for. It reminds me of Carrie Bradshaw's swanky dresses and fancy shoes minus the Monolo Blahniks, of course!

Picture courtesy from here.

Selesa Dengan Kulit Sendiri

2009-10-01T09:56:00.005+08:00

Berikut adalah gambar-gambar yang terkumpul dalam Handphone sejak bulan lepas. Gambar tidak mengikut turutan sebab malas nak susun atur semula. Mohon maaf.

Hannah yang berguling-guling nak pakai songkok macam Adam.

Faiq, Adam dan Sufyan. Terbalik rumah Mak semasa raya sebab dikerjakan oleh cucu-cucunya.

Hannah yang bad mood sebab dah pakai baju raya tapi tak pergi kemana-mana pun sebab ramai pula yang datang beraya.

Gambar di pagi raya. Sila lihat hasil keras-tangan aku tak tidur malam mengerjakan leher baju kurung Hannah dan Nadia.

Adam: Kenapa baju raya Adam tak cantik?
Mama: Sebab Adam hensem, Adam kan boy, macam Babah...

Kesian pula anak teruna yang rasa terpinggir ni. Jadi tahun ni aku belikan kain samping dan songkok supaya dia excited juga.

Selain dari komputer opis yang di serang virus dan masuk hospital selama seminggu, aku pula di serang sakit mata yang berair berterusan. Rasanya sebab kurang tidur (mengerjakan leher baju kurung yang tersebut) akibatnya beraya dengan memakai cermin mata. Tapi kenapa muka Gen macam nak nangis? Hahaha.

Satu Syawal di Kampung Pulau Rumput, Pekan.

Gambar yang lebih ceria di pagi raya.

Yang ini di ambil semasa temankan Gen shopping raya di minit terakhir. Hannah dan Nadia kebosanan.

Yang ini adalah langsir ready-made raya untuk sliding door. Masih belum bayar lagi kat Mak (T_T). Ambil gambar sambil baring sebab kepenatan adjust pemasangan langsir tersebut.

Manik baju raya Nadia yang ambil masa 3 minggu untuk disiapkan. Aku dah putus asa nak siapkan baju Hannah sebab cuma ada tempoh satu minggu sebelum raya.

Gambar budak-budak-budak kebosanan sebab temankan Gen beli baju raya. Rupanya seberang sana escalator ada jugak budak-budak yang buat aksi yang sama. Hahahh.

Gambar pagi raya tapi tak tahu kenapa Alin tak update date kat kamera dia. Dahi Nadia berbintat kena gigit nyamuk bukanlah suatu isu kerana aku bangga diri sebab ramai yang puji manik-manik kat baju Hannah dan Nadia.

Itulah aku edisi raya bercermin mata.

Salam Aidifitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Salam Harijadi Buat Hannah

2009-09-01T12:45:00.004+08:00

Tiga tahun yang lepas, pada pukul duabelas tengah malam, semasa semua orang di dalam wad sedang sibuk keluar tengok bunga api untuk sambutan Hari Merdeka, aku dah tak tahan sakit macam baby nak keluar sangat-sangat dah. Tapi tak ada Misi atau Doktor yang aku nak panggil, kakak kat katil sebelah pula sedang tidur. Macam mana lah nak buat ni. Kalau jerit, aci tak?

Tapi nak jerit pun tak larat sebab contraction dah rapat sangat and everytime it happen, it sucks the breath out of you. Nak bernafas pun susah, nak menjerit apatah lagi! Jadi aku cekalkan hati, turun dari katil yang agak tinggi juga, kaki pun menggeletar. Bila jejak ke lantai, aku pun terus jatuh 'sujud' sebab contraction berulang.

Masa tu ada Misi lalu *selepas bunga api habis ya, kawan-kawan* dan jerit, 'Ya Allah, kamu ni kenapa?' Aku memang ingat sangat ayat tu sebab aku nak je jawab, 'aku ni kat wad bersalin, takkan la aku sakit sembelit?' Da-di-da-du. Cubaan menggembirakan diri sendiri. Tapi Alhamdulillah, aku sempat bersalin di tempat yang betul dan bukan di tempat yang salah ie atas lantai wad tersebut. Hannah lahir pada pukul 12.35 tengah malam/pagi, Hari Merdeka.

Dan seperti biasa Gen tak sempat tengok aku bersalin, aku pun tak sempat tukar baju. Habis semua baju dan kain batik kena darah. Tapi tak apalah, yang penting semuanya selamat, kan?

Tiga tahun selepas itu, Gen ajak berbuka puasa di Hyatt Kuantan untuk celebrate birthday Hannah. Haha. Sebenarnya Mama dan Abah yang nak makan kat situ. Hannah manalah pandai demand lagi.

Hannah menyanyi lagu happy birthday untuk diri sendiri dan potong kek dengan begitu gembira sekali. Haha betul! Tak tipu.

Nadia yang tak pakai selipar tapi jalan kaki sampai tepi kolam renang dan tempat dessert. Lepas tu dia bawak balik icecream. Hahah. Ada mamat waiter tu bagi kat dia. Nampak sangat Mama dan Babah sedang pulun berbuka puasa. T_T

Adam berposing ala-ala manja. Gen pakai baju melayu, dia pun sibuk pakai baju melayu juga, tapi seluar dah senteng atas buku lali.

Muka-muka budak yang tak puasa. Hannah buat muka-nampak-badut yang klasiknya itu. Kat belakang tu adalah meja desserts ya.

Makcik gamelan yang menghiburkan kami sewaktu berbuka puasa. Nadia kena dukung sebab nak terjun masuk kolam.

Seronok la berbuka puasa sebab orang pun tak ramai. Makanan pun banyak, desserts, icecream semua try. Nasi Ayam, Nasi beryani, Mi, Kebab, lamb seafood, fishgrill ergh... banyak la tak ingat. Yong Tau Fu dan Tau Fu Fa pun ada. Hahahh tipu! Tau Fu Fa tak ada tapi rasa nak tulis sebab rhyme. Tempat pun sempoi dengan angin sepoi-sepoi bahasa.

Waktu balik Hannah cakap, "Mama, nanti kita datang sini lagi, ya?"

Yang tak pernah aku lihat sebelum ini....

2009-08-27T10:03:00.003+08:00

Dah tiga kali mengandung dan bersalin tapi tak pernah tahu rupa uri tu macam mana. Aku letak gambar uri isteri Jack (with permission) kat sini supaya kita semua boleh lihat kebesaran Allah dan ciptaan Nya. Kata orang tua, urat yang besar atau lubang-lubang yang ada tu menunjukkan bilangan anak kita. Hahah betul atau tak, tak tahu la.

BTW Gen kata, uri aku lebih kecil dan urat-urat lebih halus dan cerah. Bila aku tanya ada berapa urat besar? Nampak lubang tak? Dan bagitau dia teori orang tua-tua dulu... Laju je Gen jawab... Tiga! Hahah.... nampaknya Gen memang nak tutup kilang dah.

Pertama Ramadhan

2009-08-22T11:15:00.004+08:00

Pertama kali sambut Ramadhan di Rumah No. 4. Macam tak meriah la sebab hanya aku dan Gen dan aku pula tak boleh puasa. Petang semalam dah sibuk masak-masak sebab masa sahur malas nak masak. Masuk microwave je, panas nasi, dah selesai. Tapi aku bangun juga temankan Gen makan sahur dan tiba-tiba rasa macam syahdu pulak sebab aku macam tak pernah tunggu dia makan. Selalunya waktu kami makan, aku akan sibuk suapkan anak2 dan Gen makan dulu.

Lagipun terasa sunyi sebab anak2 semua tidur lena, kami dah tak perlu berjaga malam nak buat susu macam waktu berpuasa tahun lepas dan sebelumnya. Kalau dulu bulan puasa memang penat dengan karenah anak kecil dan juga penat mengandung. Tahun ni dapat puasa dan raya dengan aman. Insha-Allah.

Tapi masa sahur tadi Gen cakap, 'kita berbuka puasa kat rumah Mak karang'. Haha. Kalau dia tak cakap pun, memang aku nak ajak berbuka kat rumah Mak sebab Kak Mie ada balik (cuti sekolah). Barulah rasa seronok menyambut Ramadhan dan meriah berbuka puasa. Kak Mie cakap nak masak bubur lambuk. Hmmm sedapnya. Hahaha... macamlah puasa pun kan?!

Walau macam mana pun Salam Ramadhan dan Selamat Berpuasa.

Mungkin patut beli untuk Nadia satu

2009-08-20T11:46:00.003+08:00

Hahah... kiut kan soother ni? Atau mungkin juga sedikit pelik. Kat mana nak cari ye. Tapi kalau bagi Nadia pakai nanti risau Tok dia terkejut pulak. Lagipun sedang dalam proses cuba membuang tabiat hisap soother Nadia sebab giginya tumbuh tinggi rendah dan berbelok-belok.

Baby Dearest

2009-08-14T15:44:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday to Baby yang tak ada nama lagi setakat ni. Adik Gen, Syikin safely delivered the Baby on 12th August, 2009. Mula-mula tak nak pegang Baby sebab I might be carrying germs around from office (girl downstairs cotracted the swine flu and my boss kept on spraying the Dettol disinfectant in the elevator and bought daily masks, hand sanitizer for us). We were also compelled to wash our hand every hour and after attending clients. 'Because of the death poll, drastic measures are called for', he said. I am happy to obliged.

So, when I arrived at the Farabi, I washed my hand, peek at the Baby, refuse to hold her but then she looked at me with this trusting eyes... and she smell so good, I hold her and kiss her and alamak, I feel like I want a Baby...(again) *sigh*

If you notice the Baby's head is slightly berlekuk, I assume that it is quite a labourdous delivery for Syikin. However, Alhamdulillah, everything went went.

Kerisauan

2009-08-11T17:03:00.003+08:00

Mungkin boleh kita amalkan bersama.

Istana Tengku Mahkota pun tak selamat dari wabak ni. Sememangnya tak mengenal sesiapa. Ya Allah ya Tuhanku, Engkau hindarkanlah kami dari bala dan wabak. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Kuasa atas tiap-tiap sesuatu.

Amin.

Yang Paling Aku Sayang

2009-08-07T10:49:00.005+08:00

Demam MC dua hari, Isnin dan Selasa. Hari Rabu mulalah rasa macam tak semangat nak bekerja. Monyok macam tikus mondok. Hahahah. Kutuk diri sendiri tidak mengapa, dibenarkan. Tapi bila balik rumah hari Rabu terkejut sangat sebab tengok keadaan barang-barang dalam rumah ada yang berubah. Macam pelik lah sikit. Aku fikir mungkin Gen balik rumah tengahari tadi sebab tiada kesan pecah masuk pun.

Buka pintu belakang untuk mula memasak tapi terkejut tengok tanah kontang kat belakang tu dah digemburkan dan ada disemai pokok-pokok. Mak datang tanam pokok! Sebab sudah tentu bukan Gen yang buat, sebagai isteri, aku amat memahami perangai dia. Sukanya! Terus telefon Mak dan ucap terima kasih. Mak memang ada kunci rumah tapi tak sangka pula dia nak susah-susah tanam pokok kat sini. Hikhikk.

Pokok keladi ni untuk apa ya? Tak kisahlah... mungkin Mak suka kot.

Pokok pandan, daun kunyit, serai... owh dan ada juga benih-benih lain yang tak dikenali.

Pokok bunga tahi ayam kah? Hahahah... tak kesahlah apa-apa pun. Bertambahlah sikit kerja kena siram pokok pagi dan petang.

Apa-apa pun, sayang Mak.

Tempat Jatuh (Cinta) Lagi di Kenang....

2009-08-06T16:13:00.004+08:00

SHAH is 20 years old. Actually we have not plan to attend the gathering but since Noni said she would be alone, so we decide to keep her company. We were there shortly after azan Isya' and Gen went for prayers at the Surau while we waited for him in the car. Gen first expression was 'nostalgia sungguh' and then he said everything was the same. Hehe of course lah kan, its still the same building. Lain lah kalau diorang buat surau baru kat situ.

At Hardstand we were greeted by Kak Azlin's camera flash. Another camwhore. Rasa cam red carpet la pulak. You can review all the comments in FB. Annoyingly interesting.

All the five of us. Nasib baik semua budak well behaved. Cikgu Lela Murad was there, Ustaz Suhaimi, Ustaz Hassan, Miss AnnZuledia and ramai yang macam terkejut tengok Gen. Hahahaa sebab dia dulu macam Jambu sikit. Phewitt.

That me with Abdul Razak Ahmad (my exBoss) and Kak Azlin (the camwhore). Erm, I think he read my blog, just a feeling, but I cannot trace him to prove it.

Our group photo. Noni is beside me and offered to hold Nadia but then Nadia starts to wail loudly and everybody stop talking and look at me. Lol. Sabar je lah...

Pukul 12 tghmalam baru sampai rumah. Next day (Ahad) terus demam.

Stuckwitu

2009-07-29T13:05:00.004+08:00

CBK buat hal lagi. This time she costs me RM250. Kipas motor rosak, the air-cond went on and off, the timing meter went up and down and so does the temperature. That was on Saturday.

Yesterday (Tuesday), we went to that place for a test drive. Sesat la weh, kat area Semambu. Gen was waiting for me there and membebel, 'dalam kuantan pun boleh sesat'. Not familiar, ok! I got as far as the Polisas (dead end) and almost take a highway turn to Terengganu. Lol.

Everything went well, the test drive was ok, but the sad news is that CBK will cost me another RM5k to trade-in because her financing is well above the market price. There goes half of the money for the new car's downpayment. So, I'm stuckwitu, Miss CBK.

Gen said we don't have to trade her in. But I'm not sure I can afford to pay both cars. Sigh....

Adam is Four

2009-07-27T15:40:00.004+08:00

Sesuai tak tajuk ni? Mungkin tajuk yang lebih sesuai ialah, aku dah semakin tua. Hehe. So Hari Sabtu order cupcakes from Ju. Creative giler! Suddenly I feel like I can bake cupcakes, or maybe I should buy an oven. Hehe. Nevermind. I really love the edible piece and the cupcakes tu lembut jer... Lain kali boleh order lagi.

Adam excited sangat. Pergi celebrate kat rumah Mak De kat IM. Semua cousin pun berebut nak makan yang ada gambar Ben10. Tak sempat nak ambil gambar, semua aksi terlampau dan di luar kawalan.

Hadiah birthday Adam? Sorry ler, akhir bulan beb. Cheapskate je Mama nih. Adam dapat puzzle Ben 10 for birthday. Nasib baik dia tak pandai demand lagi, kan.

Tapi yang penting, Adam is really excited. Hehe.

Malam tu belanja Birthday Boy makan KRRC. Apa tu? Kenny Rogers lah. Kat Megamall. Juga kena upload gambar Hannah and Nadia sekali.

Please excuse Adam's fingers.

Nadia the Wonderpet. Hikhik. Makan muffin sampai dua tau! Pegang kiri kanan.

BTW, Adam is four years old and I am much much older! Yeay!

It's Friday, peeps!

2009-07-24T11:29:00.002+08:00

Just something to cheer you up! Hehee...

Dear Janet Lee

2009-07-23T12:20:00.007+08:00

Actually I am really proud that the Kuantan Syariah Court ordered her to be flogged for drinking beer in public. Flogging (canning) is usually used as an examplary method of punishment. So, I am really upset when a member of the Bar said (via a circulated Bar email) as follows,

"Flogging a muslim woman in Malaysia?"

... beat up this poor lady? No compassion in your heart to guide this lady? I ask for your compassion for this person whom I do not know but because the punishment is too severe and to set an example by 'flogging' a woman is beyond my comprehension in these day and age...
Anyway, what do I know about punishing a woman whom bears you children, take care of your needs and of your family.. and probably more than you will know... Speaking from a humanity issue........... what do ya all think? Have a heart... Give her a break... try a more humane manner if you want to guide her well.

I am tempted to reply to her email thread but I might get emotionally overboard, my reply in this entry would be as follows,

Dear Janet Lee,

Please bear in mind that the punishment was in accordance with an enacted law. It is legal. If Non Muslims not happy about it, try voicing out your opinion with the Islamic law legislators. Fellow Muslims can do that as well.

Islamic law is not a man-made law. It is fundamentally a God made law. When you ask Muslim legislators to enact laws according to their human preference (as I quote you were saying "from a humanity issue"), you are asking them to forsake the divine principles that they are compelled to adhere to.

Liqour consumption is one of the 6 offences under Hudud punishment. Apart from Hudud, there is Qisas (for the crime of murder) and Takzir (man-made punishment, enact what you deem alright). And Hudud means stipulated by God. The punishments have been stipulated either in the Quran or the Sunnah of the Prophet (Muhammad SAW).

Beer is like liquor. So, there is the spesific punishment by flogging. All I am saying, punishments for violation of law does not work how we perceive it to be. The mechanism does not stop there. For Hudud punishment, there is also the element of repentance to God and forgiveness by Him. And one who is punished in the world will not be subjected for the same offence in the Hereafter.

Please think before you make such comments because by questioning such legislation, I take it to the heart that you were indeed critisizing our religion and belief as well.

Regards,

Salwana Abdul Malek

Fellow Member of the Bar.

*sigh* the reply is too much isn't it? Sakit hati tau. Last year masa cakap pasal hukum hudud, depa komen apa tau? Depa kata nanti semua loyer kena pakai jubah, serban dan tasbih. *sigh again*

Hari Sabtu (Lagi...)

2009-07-20T14:26:00.000+08:00

Pagi-pagi dah merajuk dengan Gen sebab dia tak nak pergi A'aa's wedding reception. Last week he was not around and it irites me because people kept on asking question about him. So then, I decide to ditch today's wedding reception.

But then I forgot that Lynn will be attending the reception, so actually, I ditch her as well. My bad. Sorry Lynn. My only consolation is that we had lunch together on Friday at the Laksa Shack ECM and we talk about everything and nothing. We havent seen each other since standard six and she has grown into someone who looked so much sensible than me.

I envied her a bit. If I'm on my own, then I should be able to attend all this weddings myself instead of flinching when somebody makes a remark about my always absent hubby. Sigh. Plus that I would be able to buy a bigger car and a bigger house and more money to spurlge on myself and parents etc. But then I cut my thoughts short, because if I'm not married then I wouldn't have this three comot kids around.

I'm sorry Lynn, for not being there. I have to settle my issues. But I was really glad for the Friday lunch erm though we didn't spend time camhoring. Next time, we'll do that, ok?! I feel like we can talk for hours and I really had to drag my feet to go back to the office. Sigh again.

So, Saturday after work I took the kids out again. We went to an old part of Kuantan town(macam area belakang Petaling Street) and visit the pet shop.

Nadia is really excited. She keep on touching the cat and immitates it meowing shriekingly.

Hannah is also excited but the she said loudly, 'Busuk la kedai ni Mama,' T_T

Adam wants to pose near the rabbit but the rabbit is really shy and keep moving away. We can only see its rear. Hehe.

This is the three of them poking at a frightened little kitty.

The kitty is really cute but it costs RM700. Not affordable. Plus both me and Gen are allergic to cats. It will make me sneeze a lot, gives me runny nose and bleary eyes and gives Gen rashes.

Then we went to a kedai karpet. Actually I want to buy a sejadah so that I can leave it in the office instead of borrowing Maryam's everyday.

And if you are wondering how I drive with my three little 'angels', this is how I drive with three of them at the front seat and sometimes with Nadia on my lap.

After that, main air in the bathroom tapi kemudian kena marah sebab air semua masuk dapur sebab they got carried away. Sigh.

Tapi lepas tu kena bebel dengan Mak sebab tak pergi wedding A'aa plus bawak anak-anak keluar sendiri (she didn't know about last week). Mak said I'm being selfish and reckless because anything can happen to them like one of them may suddenly jump or run off to the road. Well actually that is a possibility, lah kan... Sigh. Maybe I should wait until they are bigger.

Kalau tak suka, pulangkan balik...

2009-07-17T16:58:00.000+08:00

Bahagian Satu

Kereta dihentikan betul-betul di hadapan rumah. Pintu pagar automatiknya terbuka. Perlahan kereta di halakan ke dalam garaj.

"Horey! Papa balik!" Kelihatan anak-anaknya berlari mengiringi keretanya.

"Tepi! Bahaya tau tak?" Jeritnya.

Anak-anak termanggu. Cahaya kegembiraan di wajah mereka pudar.

"Aimin bawa adik ke belakang." Arahnya pada anak yang sulong. Pulangnya petang itu disambut dingin oleh anak-anak. Isterinya turut terdiam bila mendengar anak-anak mengadu tentang papa mereka.

"Papa penat. Aimin bawa adik mandi dulu. Mama siapkan minum petang. Lepas minum papa mesti nak main bola dengan kita," pujuk Laila.

Dia yang mendengar di ruang tamu hanya mendengus. Seketika kemudian terdengar hilai tawa anak-anaknya di bilik mandi. Dia bangun.

"Hah! Main air. Bil bulan ini papa kena bayar dekat seratus. Cepat! Tutup paip tu! Buka shower!" Sergahnya.

Suara yang bergema mematikan tawa anak-anaknya.

"Asal saya balik rumah mesti bersepak. Kain baju berselerak. Apa awak makan tidur aje ke duduk rumah?" sambungnya kembali bila isterinya terpacul di belakang pintu.

"Anak-anak pa. Diorang yang main tu. Takpe nanti mama kemas. Papa minum ye. Mama dah siapkan kat taman." Balas isterinya lembut.

"Fail saya kat depan tu mana?"

"Mama letak dalam bilik. Takut budak-budak alihkan."

"Boleh tak awak jangan usik barang-barang saya? Susah tau tak? Fail tu patutnya saya bawa meeting tengahari tadi." Rungutnya sekalipun di hati kecil mengakui kebenaran kata-kata isterinya itu.

Suasana sepi kembali. Dia menarik nafas berat. Terasa begitu jauh berbeza. Dia tercari-cari riuh suara anak-anak dan wajah isterinya. "Laila" Keluhnya Akhirnya dia terlena di sofa.

Bahagian Dua

"Saya nak ke out station minggu depan."

"Lama?" Soal Laila.

"Dalam seminggu."

"Cuti sekolah pun lama. Mama ikut boleh?"
"Budak-budak? "

"Ikut jugalah."

"Dah! Takde! Takde! Susah nanti. Macam-macam diorang buat kat sana. Tengok masa kat Legacy dulu tu"

"Masa tu Amirul kecik lagi." Balas Laila. Wajahnya sayu. Dia masih berusaha memujuk biarpun dia tahu suaminya tak mungkin berganjak dari keputusan yang dibuat. Tak mungkin peristiwa Amirul terpecahkan pinggan di hotel dulu berulang. Anak itu masih kecil benar sewaktu ia berlaku. Lagipun apa sangatlah harganya pinggan itu malahan pihak hotel pun tak minta ganti rugi.

"Bolehlah Pa! Lama sangat kita tak ke mana-mana."

"Nak jalan sangat Sabtu ni saya hantar awak balik kampung," Muktamad!

Demikianlah seperti kata-katanya. Anak-anak dan isterinya dihantar ke kampung. Laila tak merungut apa-apa meskipun dia tahu isterinya berkecil hati. Anak-anak terlompat riang sebaik kereta berhenti di pengkarangan rumah nenek mereka. Tak sampai setengah jam dia telah bergegas semula untuk pulang.

Bapa mertuanya membekalkan sebuah kitab lama.

"Cuba-cubalah baca. Kitab tu pun abah ambil dari masjid. Dari mereka bakar abah ambik bagi kamu!"

"Manalah saya ada masa.."

"Takpe..pegang dulu. Kalau tak suka pulangkan balik!" Dia tersentak dari khayalannya.

"Kalau tak suka pulangkan balik!" Kata-kata itu bergema di fikirannya. Dia rasa tersindir.

Tahukah bapa mertuanya masalah yang melanda rumahtangganya itu? Bukan..bukan tak suka malah dia tetap sayang sekalipun Laila bukan pilihannya. Dunia akhirat Laila adalah isterinya. Cuma..

"Mizi, makan!" Panggil ibunya yang datang menemaninya sejak seminggu lalu.

"Jangan ikutkan hati. Yang sudah tu sudahlah."

"Papa! Makan!" Jerit Aiman, anak keduanya sambil tersengih-sengih mendapatkan dirinya. "Tak boleh panggil papa elok-elok. Ingat papa ni pekak ke?" Aiman menggaru kepalanya yang tak gatal. Pelik! Kenapa papanya tiba-tiba saja marah. Dia berpatah semula ke dapur.

"Awak masak apa?"

"Mama masak sup tulang dengan sambal udang!" jawab Amirul memotong sebelum sempat mamanya membuka mulut.

"Takde benda lain ke awak boleh masak? Dah saya tak nak makan. Hilang selera!"

"Papa nak ke mana?" Soal isterinya perlahan.

"Keluar!"

"Mama dah masak Pa!"

"Awak saja makan!"

"Takpe Aiman boleh habiskan. Cepatlah mama!"

Laila tahu Aiman hanya memujuk. Anak keduanya itu sudah pandai mengambil hatinya. Aimin tersandar di kerusi makan. Sekadar memerhati langkah papanya keluar dari ruang makan.

"Kenapa sekarang ni papa selalu marah-marah ma?" Soal Aimin sambil menarik pinggannya yang telah berisi nasi.

"Papa banyak kerja agaknya. Dah! Makan."

"Abang tak suka tengok papa marah-marah. ."

"Adik pun sama. Bila papa marah muka dia macam gorilla kan?" Kata-kata Aiman disambut tawa oleh abang-abangnya yang lain. Laila menjeling. Di hati kecilnya turut terguris Besar sangatkah dosanya hingga menjamah nasi pun tidak. Kalau ada pun salahnya, apa?

Syamizi menjengah ke ruang dapur. Kosong."Laila.." serunya

"Sudahlah tu Mizi! Jangan diingat-ingat. Kerja Tuhan ni tak dapat kita tolak-tolak. Bawak-bawaklah beristighfar. Kalau terus macam ni sakit kau nanti." Kata ibunya yang muncul tiba-tiba.

"Sunyi pulak rumah ni mak,"

"Lama-lama kau biasalah."Airmatanya menitis laju.

"Kalau tak suka pulangkan!" Dia rasa terhukum. Hampir segenap saat kata-kata itu bergema di sekitarnya. Dia rasa terluka. Kehilangan yang amat sangat.

Bahagian Tiga

"Papa beli apa untuk Aiman?" Soal Aiman sebaik dia pulang dari outstationnya.

"Beli apa pulak? Barang permainan kan bersepah dalam bilik belakang tu."

"Tak ada lah?"

"Ingat papa ni cop duit?" Aiman termanggu. Dia berlalu mencari mamanya di dapur. Seketika kemudian rumah kembali riuh dengan telatah anak-anak lelakinya yang bertiga itu mengiringi mama mereka yang sedang menatang dulang berisi hidangan minum petang. Wajah Laila direnungnya. Ada kelainan pada raut itu. Riaknya tenang tapi ada sesuatu yang sukar ditafsirkannya.

"Awak tak sihat ke?"Laila tersenyum. Tangannya pantas menuang air ke cawan.

"Papa, tak lama lagi abang dapat adik lagi." Aimin mencelah di antara perbualan kedua ibu bapanya.

Shamizi tersenyum. Jemari isterinya digenggam erat. Tiba-tiba cawan berisi kopi yang masih panas terjatuh dan pecah di lantai. Aiman tercegat.

"Tengok! Ada saja yang kamu buat. Cuba duduk baik-baik. Kalau air tu tak tumpah tak sah!" Tempiknya membuatkan anak itu tertunduk ketakutan. Baju mamanya dipegang kejap.

Lengan Aiman dipegangnya kuat hingga anak kecil itu mula menangis. Pantas saja akhbar di tangannya hinggap ke kepala anaknya itu. Laila cuba menghalang tapi dia pantas dulu menolak isterinya ke tepi. Aiman di pukul lagi. Amirul menangis. Aimin mendapatkan mamanya.

"Perangai macam beruk! Tak pernah buat orang senang!"Laila bangun dari jatuhnya dan menarik lembut Aiman ke dalam pelukkannya. Airmata mereka bersatu. Pilu sungguh hatinya melihat kekasaran suaminya terhadap anak-anak.

"Cukuplah pa. Papa dah hukum pun dia tapi janganlah sebut yang bukan-bukan. " Ujar Laila perlahan

"Macamana awak didik budak-budak sampai macam ni teruk perangainya? Tengok anak orang lain ada macam ni? Anak kak Long tu tak pulak macam ni. Panjat sana, kecah barang. Gila apa?" Omelnya kembali.Shamizi meraut wajah.

Bukan kepalang salahnya pada Aiman. Padanya anak itu tak pernah dapat memuaskan hatinya. Ada saja salah Aiman di matanya. Ada saja yang kurang di hatinya terhadap anak-anak dan isteri. Tak cukup dengan perbuatan malah dia begitu mudah melemparkan kata-kata yang bukan-bukan terhadap mereka.

"Tak boleh ke kamu semua senyap? Dalam sehari ni boleh tak diam? Rimas betul duduk dalam rumah ni." Laila menyuruh anak-anaknya bermain di halaman belakang rumah. Memberi sedikit ruang buat suaminya menonton dengan tenang. Malangnya tak lama kemudian kedengaran bunyi tingkap kaca pecah.

"Celaka betul!" Sumpahnya sambil menghempaskan akhbar ke meja.

"Abang!"

"Baik awak tengok anak-anak awak tu sebelum saya hambat dengan rotan! Perangai satu-satu macam tak siuman!" Getusnya kasar.

Akhirnya tingkap yang pecah kembali diganti. Cerita sumpah seranahnya petang itu hilang begitu saja. Laila berubah. Sikapnya yang pendiam menjadi semakin pendiam. Anak-anak juga sedikit menjauh. Tak ada lagi cerita Amirul di tadika. Tak ada lagi kisah Aimin yang cemerlang di dalam sukan sekolahnya. Aiman juga tak lagi mahu memanggilnya makan. Shamizi terasa puas hati. Barangkali itu saja caranya untuk memberi sedikit pengajaran pada anak-anak.

"Pak Ngah, Eddie nak balik!" Shamizi terpana. Dia mengangguk.

"Kak Long balik dulu Mizi. Sudahlah! Kamu muda lagi. Cari pengganti." Alangkah mudahnya. Kalaulah dia boleh bertemu lagi yang serupa seperti Laila. Laila tak ada yang kurang Cuma dia yang tak pernah puas hati. Laila tak pernah merungut. Laila tak pernah membantah. Sepanjang usia perkahwinan mereka Laila tak pernah meminta lebih dari apa yang dia beri. Laila cuma dapat gred B walaupun dia teramat layak untuk mendapat gred yang lebih baik dari A.

"Laila..."

Bahagian Empat

"Papa nak ke mana hensem-hensem gini?" Dia tersenyum sambil menjeling ke cermin meninjau bayang isterinya yang kian sarat.

"Wangi-wangi lagi. Dating ye?"

"Saya ada makan malam di rumah bos besar. Dia buat makan-makan untuk staff." Ujarnya masih leka membetulkan kolar kemeja batiknya.

"Ikut boleh?"

"Dia tak ajak family. Staff only!" Terangnya sedangkan difikirannya terfikir lain. Kali ni dia akan pergi ke jamuan tu dengan Helmi. Helmi akan turut menumpangkan Maria dan Harlina. Staff yang masih muda dan bujang.

"Dalam setahun papa selalu ke jamuan office tapi tak pernah pun bawak kami."

"Leceh kalau ada budak-budak. Bukan tau duduk diam Lari sana sini, panjat itu ini. "

"Papa pesanlah.."

"Nantilah besar sikit." Dalihnya.

"Kalau tunggu besar takut takde peluang. Nanti diorang tu dah tak nak ikut pergi mana pun."

"Lagi senang. Saya kalau lasak-lasak ni buat hati panas je,"Laila terdiam.

"Namanya budak-budak. Anak-anak papa tu lelaki."

"Saya pergi kejap je. Lepas tu terus balik."

"Mama tanya sikit boleh?" Dia mengangguk

"Bos tak pelawa atau papa malu nak bawa mama dan anak-anak?"

Mereka dia tinggalkan di rumah. Di jamuan tu ramai staff yang membawa keluarga mereka bersama. Pada Shamizi dia mahukan keselesaan sedangkan hakikatnya anak-anak staff yang lain lebih lasak dan nakal. Semeja hidangan untuk anak-anak staff berderai bila ada yang bermain tarik-tarik alas kainnya.

"Never mind. Budak-budak memang macam tu. Kalau tak lasak tak cerdik," ujar Mr. Kwai, tuan rumah. Shamizi sedikit mengakui kebenaran kata-kata itu. Anak-anaknya pun nakal tapi amat membanggakan dalam pelajaran. Namun dia rasa serba tak kena bila bersama mereka. Bimbang ada yang mengata yang bukan-bukan tentang anak-anaknya yang lasak apatah lagi tentang isterinya Laila.

Bimbang dimalukan dengan perangai anak-anaknya. Bimbang jika dikatakan Laila tidak sepadan dengan dirinya. Dia lulusan luar negara sedang Laila cuma perempuan kampung. Tak pandai bergaya seperti staff wanita yang lain. Betullah jangkaan Laila, dia malu untuk memperkenalkan isteri dan anak-anaknya pada rakan-rakan.

"Kalau tak suka pulangkan!" Kata-kata itu semakin keras di fikirannya.

Bahagian Lima

Pagi itu anak-anak sekali lagi dimaki sebelum ke sekolah. Semata-mata bila Aimin dan Aiman bergelut berebutkan tempat duduk di meja makan menyebabkan air cuci tangan tumpah ke meja. Berangnya tiba-tiba menguasai diri. Kepala kedua-duanya di lagakan sedangkan perebutan itu tidak pula disusuli dengan perkelahian.

"Kamu semua ni..kalau macam ni daripada ada elok tak ada. Menyusahkan! " Laila merenungnya dalam.. Matanya berkaca dan anak-anak ke sekolah tanpa menyalaminya seperti selalu.

Laila juga tidak berkata apa-apa sebelum menghidupkan enjin untuk menghantar anak-anak ke sekolah. Shamizi dapat melihat Laila mengesat airmatanya. Dia terus menghadapi sarapannya. Sejenak dia terpandang hidangan untuk anak-anak yang tak bersentuh. Susu masih penuh di cawan. Roti telur yang menjadi kesukaan anak-anak juga tidak dijamah. Bekal di dalam bekas tidak diambil. Pelik! Selama ini Laila tak pernah lupa..

"Kalau tak suka pulangkan," Kali ini dia benar-benar menangis.

Laila dan anak-anak terus tak pulang selepas pagi itu. Hari-harinya tak lagi diganggu dengan gelagat anak-anak. Rumah terus sunyi dan sepi. Tetap dia tak dapat tidur dengan lena. Di halaman belakang hanya ada kenangan. Kelibat anak-anaknya bergumpal dan berlari mengejar bola tak lagi kelihatan. Riuh anak-anak bila mandi di bilik air juga tidak lagi kedengaran. Dia mula dihambat rindu. Hanya ada kesunyian di mana-mana. Hanya tinggal bola yang terselit di rumpun bunga. Selaut rindu mula menghambat pantai hatinya.

LailaBenarlah, kita hanya tahu harganya bila kita kehilangannya.Laila terus tak pulang sekalipun dia berjanji untuk berubah. Laila pergi membawa anak-anaknya pagi itu bila kereta mereka dirempuh sebuah kereta lain yang dipandu laju. Laila pergi tanpa meninggalkan satu pun untuknya. Laila pergi membawa Aimin, Aiman, Amirul dan zuriat yang bakal dilahirkan dua bulan lagi..Dia menangis semahu-mahunya bila menatap wajah lesi anak-anak dan isterinya. Dia meraung memeluk tubuh Laila yang berlumuran darah.

Hakikatnya Laila adalah kitab lama itu, lapuk bagaimana pun dipandangan harganya tak terbanding, dan kerana keengganannya Laila dipulangkan.

Cute Pencen Couple.

2009-07-15T16:36:00.000+08:00

Teka siapa kat belakang saya?

Haha. Kiut kan? Macam tak sangka diaorg boleh buat lawak cam ni.

Hari Sabtu

2009-07-14T11:55:00.001+08:00

I have to work every Saturdays other than the first Saturday of the month. So, when I have to attend a cousin's wedding, I just leave early at 11am. I have been doing this a lot, lately. Hmm.

My cousin is the groom, A'aa, (cute name right?). He married Lynn's baby sis. Lynn is my long lost friend back in Kempadang. Small world, rite. We were in standard six together. No pictures of us, later maybe once we had a proper chance to talk and reminisce our good old days.

After the wedding, it's lepak time with Adam, Hannah and Nadia. Gen was busy, so I decide to take all three of them lepak-lepak at the Kuantan Plaza.

Adam bawak bas, serious!

Adam's passenger, Nadia with a Care Bear.

Hannah is as usual, scared. She just looked at the bus.

Another shot, Nadia as co-pilot.

Nadia is unhappy once I took the soother away from her. Marah.

After that we lepak-lepak at the cafe on Kuantan Walk. Lol. Happening la sangat. Minum Milo sambil tengok orang lalu-lalang. Then I'm thinking, ada ke orang ajar anak-anak dia lepak-lepak? Haha. I might not be the only one. So, I took them to Along's house to lepak-lepak there pulak. Hikhikk. Suka-suka je kan, tader aktiviti.

Ponteng Kerja

2009-07-08T15:15:00.000+08:00

Semalam Boss suruh attend a distress hearing. Now they held the Magistrate Court's session at 2pm in the afternoon. I was so lazy to attend afternoon courts. So, I decide to ponteng kerja afterwards. Hehe.

Of course I will call my partner in crime. We were supposed to watch Transformers but I cannot recall what I said to the ticketing guy. I end up buying Terminator's tixs (smaller scale blonde moment). Gen was mad at first because he anticipated watching the great Optimus Prime. Actually, we can change the tix and we can still catch Transformers shows at 3.50pm but it will end pretty late and we will be late picking up the kids from Nanny's house. So, Terminator it is.

Besides Gen's tix was free. My treat. So he cannot actually complaint kan, unless if he's buying...

But the movie was great and there was only six of us in the cinema, very comfortable and cold plus that I get to snuggle to Gen. Hehe.

Disclaimer: Tak baik ponteng kerja! The next day (Wednesday, today), Boss drag me to attend the RDSB Board Meeting. Padan muka! Lol. Bad Karma.

Always on Monday

2009-07-06T15:50:00.000+08:00

I have stared blankly into the monitor with my minds elsewhere since this morning and this one particular scene kept on playing on my mind.

Hannah: Mama, Lala tolong Mama masak ni.

Mama: Apa nyer?

Hannah: Ni...

We always play masak-masak together. Fun eh? Hmm its only 3pm and I miss them so much.

Girls Day Out

2009-07-03T14:50:00.000+08:00

Dah lama tak keluar makan dengan diorang. So, di hari Jumaat yang mulia ni, elok kalau pergi jumpa kawan-kawan dan mengeratkan silaturahim. Besides, Noni wants to check out this new place in ECM. Vegetarian food which is very delicious. Actually, I lupa nama kedai tu apa. LOL.

Posing with my Nasi Goreng. Ok, sedap and the tauhu and mushroom tastes like chicken and beef.

This is Norma, younger than us tapi ok la, boleh joint je. Tader hal.

My Nasi Goreng lagi.

Our appetizers. Fried mushrooms, red bean that look like hotdogs and Lieza's Wantan Mee.

Lieza concious pulak bila suruh senyum. Hahhah. By the way she's selling Hai-O's water filter that famous Bio Aura and cekidaut that tudung she's wearing. Very nice. You can view it here.

Noni with an excited face tak sabar nak belasah Bihun Tom Yam. Thanks for the treat, dear. BTW Noni pun jual tudung jugak. Like the one she's wearing. Kalau nak, you can look for her at the Tourism Helpdesk, Mahkota Square. Boleh dapat special rate kalau you sebut nama I! Hahahah. Bal and Azy next time ok. Till our next makan-makan session, love you guys!

Tagged Back by Nomy.

2009-07-02T15:19:00.000+08:00

Haha dah kena tag balik!

Suka laaa sebab dah dua kali dapat award nih BTW blh la ckp pasal dia balik... hikhikk

Ikut macam Jan, jawab first part je la.. khas utk nomy.

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Nyatakan 5 fakta menarik tentang si pemberi award ini : Nomy

1. Semua org panggil dia Nomy. Walaupun nama sebenar dia lain. Lagipun dulu pernah call office dia la kononnya 'Can I speak to Miss Normahamah?'. Then the other girl replied 'Who?'. After a short while baru that girl jawab, 'Owh, you mean, Nomy? Hold on, ya'. Hahahh. Nomy had indeed become her formal name.

2. Dah lama kenal tapi tak rapat. Back in KYPMKL dah. Dulu selalu bajet Nomy ni macam sombong. Hahahh. But once we get to know each other, we become really close. Dulu mula-mula rapat sebab Eda kot. Tapi skang, Eda ntah ke mana but both of us are really close. We talk/chat/sms/ym/mms every other day. Hehe. Nothing much, girlie stuff. Your story my story kind of things.

3. Nomy yang shopaholic sebenarnya. Aku bukan shopaholic sebab aku tader handbag Coach. Hahah. Nak tau tak dia pakai handbag Coach yang dia ingat dapat murah sekali tu bila cek sebenarnya yang jual kat sini lagi murah. Lalalalala.

4. In further reference to Nomy's item No. 7, I know what you want to buy next. Yes, and it is already approved!

5. Nomy is blessed with two adorable kids, Haikal who resembles Popeq so much and Alaani who resembles her so much. I don't know how she did it but she got the genes mixed correctly. Hehe.

Finally, thank you for the Bandung gift, just got it last week but sadly, my tailor dah tak nak ambil order baju yang ada lining for Hari Raya. So, maybe next year baru boleh hantar tempah. So, I'm camwhoring, here especially for you.

Mula-mula ambil gambar kain dulu.

Okay, the picture looks dull. Tutup pintu office baru berani camwhoring.

Okay another one, I cannot keep my mouth shut because I felt ridiculous. I took this inside the ladies. Hahahh. Nomy, macam kain orang nak kawen lah. Hikhikk. Segan aku nak pakai!

And I really miss my mole actually. LOL.

Futsal at Semambu

2009-07-01T16:31:00.000+08:00

On Saturday, we went for a futsal tournament in Semambu. Gen is the goalie and he bought jerseys for the whole team, bought himself a new pair of shoes and gloves but I really can't imagine him play futsal again.

Mr Funny faces.

Miss Drama Queen.

Ermm, Nadia's hair is hopeless. Hannah had changed her clothes twice. Adam is trying to pose funny. We shall label them as 'Budak-budak Comot'.

Tagged by Jan

2009-06-26T16:07:00.001+08:00

Petang-petang ni macam best jugak merepek buat menda alah ni sambil menunggu berbuka puasa. Eh, I mean, balik kerja. Hahah.

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Nyatakan 5 fakta menarik tentang si pemberi award ini : Jan Khan

1) paling sedap dipeluk! mcm teddy bear. Jan, I really miss hugging u!

2) first time jumpa mcm takut tgk Jan, intimidating. Tapi bila dengar suara, rasa mcm 'ler ini ke suara dia?' hahahahah such a sweeet voice.

3) paling suka lagu, menyanyi, tgk movies, baca buku citer chick flick, harry potter... owh the list is endless... pastu kan kalau tengok cerita sedih or baca cerita sedih or nyanyi lagu sedih, nanti dia nangis. So Sweeeeeeeet!

4) suka bila dia panggil Kak Rose. Rasa macam kakak Jan jer. hahaha.

5) is one lucky person, loved by everybody who knows her. Saper pernah ada sakit hati ngan Jan? Hehe takde kan.

Setiap blogger mestilah menyatakan 10 fakta ataupun hobi diri sendiri (part ni paling susah ni)

1) balik kuantan sebab nak kawin and never regret it

2) blessed with three adorable kids and one loving hubby (ayat bodek)

3) a Sagittarian (mcm Jan jugak).

4) tak pandai masak tapi secara tiba2 lepas dok kat Rumah No. 4, boleh memasak. Hehe.

5) buat blog ni sbb Jan lah... dia yang suruh buat. Kalau tak, maybe takde la blog ni. Aiseh... macam terharu pulak.

6) kalau mode malas masak, menu pujaan hatiku adalah Sphagetti cap Prego. Hikhikk

7) sangat kurus. melidi. berharap dapat gemukkan badan sikit supaya orang tak cakap macam rupa budak sekolah dan tak cakap Adam, Hannah dan Nadia tu anak sedara (-_-")

8) last movie seen in cinema was Twillight. Seriously! That was like, one year ago. Tapi kan, tu pun sebab Jan la, dia yang asyik promote Edward, Bella and Jake. Beli semua buku pun sebab Jan jugak! I even follow one fan-fict on the net, Wide Awake pun sebab Jan jugak. Hehe.

9) nak cakap terima kasih kat Jan sebab selalu bagi bunga, balloons etc masa birthday. I love you so much. Jan's specialty would be the fact that she can make you feel like you are one special person, even when you are just one simple girl.

10) macam rasa pelik sebab sepatutnya cakap pasal diri sendiri, tapi cakap pasal Jan pulak. LOL.

Anda perlu memilih 10 penerima award seterusnya dan describe tentang mereka

1) jan : hehe i tag u back! nah rasakan... eh, boleh tak?

2) cikgu murni : kawanku sejak jaman sekolah rendah. macam tak percaya jumpa dia balik di alam cyber. hikhikk

3) yongkie : dah kena tag 2x

4) lieyn : erm kawan baru tapi terus klik. rasa macam mempunyai corak pemikiran yang sama.. *mode merepek*. Actually satu sekolah ngan hubby dia. Seriously tak pernah cakap ngan hubby u masa sekolah. Tetiba sekarang ni baik ngan u pulak. Lieyn kalau u tak nak buat pun tak per, sebab maybe u tak tahu apa nak cakap pasal i kan? Haha.

5) nomy : pun tag 2x jugak. sila buat 2x jugak yer! hahahah. btw, spiderman kecik tu sgt berkaliber.

tak yah tag banyak2. yang dah kena tag ni pun tak tentu buat ke tidak. haha

Miss Matsuyuki

2009-06-24T15:54:00.000+08:00

Siapakan dia? Mungkinkah sahabat baikku yang terbaru? Agak2 apa ya? Cepat teka. Macam monitor komputer? Mungkinkah komputer baru? Hehe.

Ada pedal yang disediakan. Dah tahu apa dia? Ini bukan tetikus atau PDA.

Tadaaaa. Mesin jahit automatik dengan fungsi jahit tepi. Boleh membuat sehingga lebih seribu jenis jahitan. Iye lah tu... poyo je iklan nyer.

Erm. Masalahnyer, nak pasang benang pun tak tahu. LOL. Tapak juga boleh ditukar untuk menjahit sulam. Dalam gelap boleh pasang lampu untuk menjahit. Mentol spare juga disediakan. Owh, baru tau benang boleh masuk jarum secara sendiri, tak perlu cucuk-cucuk sampai juling mata.

Buatan Jepun. Masalah sebenar nya adalah, aku perlu ke mesin jahit ni?

*Sambil mengenang masa silam* Sebenarnya beli sebab geram Gen masuk hutan (April 2009)dan dia kata aku tak ada hobi. Secara tiba-tiba aku rasa nak menjahit dan jadikan ia sebagai satu hobi. Boleh tak? Ridiculous, kan. Seluar koyak pun aku mintak tolong Mak jahitkan. So, setakat ni aku dah bayar tiga kali ansuran bulanan sebanyak RM220. Ada lagi tujuh bulan nak bayar. Dan sebelum tu dah bayar duit muka sebanyak RM300.

Ye, Nomy, aku dah terdengar-dengar omelan kau sekarang (-_-'').

Aku boleh buat! Aku nak jahit baju raya untuk Adam, Hannah dan Nadia tahun ni. Eh, sempat tak? Bila tengok balik... rerupanya CD panduan pun tak pernah buka selepas 3 bulan, masih dalam sampul plastik lagi. 'Hobi' lah sangat....

Aku selalu mengomel cakap tak tau duit aku pergi mana, kan. Sebenarnya aku tau duit tu pergi mana, tak nak mengaku je. In denial.

P/S: Lieyn, I cannot reply to your comments, selalu keluar blocked pop-up. Naper ye? Btw, I yang belanja Gen. Mother's Day tak dapat apa-apa pun... (Hahahha tipu lagi, in denial, tak baik. Sori, nanti I cerita kemudian)

Gen's Father's Day Treat

2009-06-20T11:37:00.000+08:00

Sebenarnya Mama rasa macam nak makan KFC kat Palm Beach. Haha jangan tak tau, Teluk Cempedak tu tempat boulevard tu telah dinamakan oleh Majlis Perbandaran Kuantan sebagai Palm Beach, ok. Tak original lansung. Tapi Adam tak mau makan KFC, dia nak makan pizza.

So, kitorang detour pergi ke Kuantan Parade untuk makan Pizza Hut. Lagipun belum pernah try Maditerranean Pizza tu, kan.

Gen and Adam comfortably waiting for food.

Nadia yang macam biasa, kalau ambil gambar tak pernah pandai posing.

Hannah and her new hair cut. Macam boy kan? Sayang jugak nak potong rambut dia tapi sebab susah sangat nak shampo sampai jerit-jerit buat scene dalam bilik air. Last-last kena potong juga. Bila waiter datang tanya nak makan apa, Hannah jawab, 'Nak burger.....' (-_-") Berpeluh jap waiter tu nak jawab. Hehe.

Lepas tu seperti yang telah dipraktiskan, beramai-ramai cakap 'Selamat Hari Babah!'. Early Father's Day Treat sebab Gen masuk hutan on Saturday and Sunday for 4x4. T_T

Bila CBKku merajuk

2009-06-19T16:14:00.000+08:00

I think she heard me when I talked about buying a new car. I think she acted out and demand more attention from me. I was trying to be discreet and not to talk about it in her presence. But then, Gen’s macho car might told her the news when they spend cold nights together in the garage, rite?

In the first week of the month, it was the road tax and insurance renewal issues. Her tax expires early of the month and I have to renew her insurance as well. However, because of her petite-ness, it only cost me RM450. It is ok-lah, affordable considering how much her friend is costing.

During the second week, she smelt like there’s a leakage in the gas tank. So, I left her at the mechanic to look at it. The dem mechanic cannot find anything wrong other than the air-cond belt had loosened and need tightening up. He conveniently services CBK changes her black oil and charges me RM80 for his services. Dem.

The same mechanic points out that CBK’s tyres had worn-out. So, during the third week, we go and get the two front tyres changed. That costs me another RM210 (plus alignment) and the tyre guy told me that her brake pad had worn out as well. So, we change the brake pad and it costs me an additional RM70. That was on Wednesday.

The ultimate cry-out would be today, Friday because CBK choose to have a flat tyre during lunch hour. This is the first time she pulls a stunt like that. She must be doing it on purpose! However, changing a flat tyre was never my thing. Luckily there are a few good guys around. Anas from the Mustika Ratu downstairs and Cheong from the next door convenient shop. Luckily Ms. Teo’s uncle owns a tyre shop at the other end of the building (near Tanjung) and he only charged me RM5.

However there is a long way before we reach the end of the month and she might pull another stunt next week. So I left her at the carwash downstairs so she get a bit freshen up and stop sulking. The truth is I love her so much. She’s my first CBK though I’m not her first owner.

So now, I’m telling her I’m not buying a new car, not yet. Please dear, no more stunts.

Bermain Layang-Layang di Pantai Kempadang

2009-06-17T14:15:00.000+08:00

Balik ambil Adam, Hannah dan Nadia dari rumah Mak Su di Kempadang terus pergi main layang-layang kat pantai. Semua orang excited giler. Especially Adam sebab dia ada layang-layang Batman! Hehe.

Farihah tolong pegang layang-layang Hannah. Kecil dan senang nak naikkan.

Hannah buat muka budak kedekut sebab tak bagi Mama pinjam layang-layang dia. T_T

Gen with Adam. Si Batman tu dah la susah nak naik pastu asyik pusing-pusing. Langgar layang-layang Hannah pula.

Nampak tak layang-layang Adam? Hitam dan kecil jer sebab gambar jauh.

Masih lagi buat muka kedekut.

Yang besar ni layang-layang Gen. Dia yang excited terlebih sebenarnya (-_-''). Mama tak ada layang-layang sebab Gen suruh beli sendiri. Tak nak la beli, kan. Ingatkan boleh kongsi dengan Hannah, mana la tau dia nak conquer sorang-sorang.

Nanti la, Mama beli layang-layang Crown Queen yang besar tu... Korang tengok aje yea. Hehe.

Oh ya, Adam tak nak pergi sekolah dah. Nanti cerita lain kali.

Marketing for Dummies

2009-06-12T17:26:00.000+08:00

You see a gorgeous girl at a party.

You go up to her and say, ‘I am very rich. Marry me!

’That’s Direct Marketing

You’re at a party with a bunch of friends and see a gorgeous girl.

One of your friends goes up to her and pointing at you says,

‘He’s very rich. Marry him.

’That’s Advertising.

You see a gorgeous girl at a party.

You go up to her and get her telephone number.

The next day you call and say,

‘Hi, I’m very rich. Marry me.’

That’s Telemarketing.

You’re at a party and see a gorgeous girl.

You get up and straighten your tie; you walk up to her and pour her a drink.

You open the door for her, pick up her bag after she drops it,

offer her a ride, and then say,

‘By the way, I’m very rich ‘Will you marry me?’

That’s Public Relations.

You’re at a party and see a gorgeous girl.

She walks up to you and says,

‘You are very rich, I want to marry you.’

That’s Brand Recognition.

You see a gorgeous girl at a party.

You go up to her and say,

‘I’m rich. Marry me’

She gives you a nice hard slap on your face.

That’s Customer Feedback.

The New Card is Here, Finally!

2009-06-10T11:34:00.000+08:00

I have been pretty dependent to my credit card since the last ten years. So when the card expired last month, I stayed quietly during lunch hour instead of going out and buying things that I don't really need and end up thinking about the purchase all over again. I only had one credit card and I dont be trust myself with more cards. For May, I only spend RM630-ish (and then the card expired, died and buried) and that was really cheap considering that the bill is inclusive of payment to the insurance company, Astro, Maxis and Pak Muzlina Trading (Shell for gas, BTW is it a guy or a girl's name? Fusion perhaps?)

Now that I have my new card, it is unlikely that I will spend the same amount for this month's bill. Maybe I should keep it somewhere safe and only use it when i need it. Yeah right, I have been talking about cutting back but never put it into action.

But then I realise that the card is embossed with the Malaysian Bar's emblem, so I should be proud using it. Excuses... excuses...

Nice eh?

Sleep

2009-06-09T16:05:00.000+08:00

A man can go two weeks without eating. But if he doesn't rest at all, he can only survive for one week. Sleeping provides us the time to rest our internal organs, eyes and brains. Poor sleep quality can cause internal damage to our internal organs and brains. Therefore, sleeping is very important to us. If you wish to have a long life and stay healthy, please take note of the advice below.

DON'T SLEEP WITH WATCH

Watches can emit a certain level of radioactivity. Though small, but if you wear your watch to bed for a long time, it might have adverse effects on your health.

DON'T SLEEP WITH BRA

Scientists in America have discovered those that wear bras for more than 12 hours have a higher risk of getting breast cancer. So go to bed without it.

DON'T SLEEP WITH PHONE

Putting the phone beside your bed or anywhere near you is not encouraged. Though some of us will use phones as alarm clocks, but please put the phone as far as possible. Scientists have proved that electrical items including mobile phone and television sets emit magnetic waves when used. These waves can cause disruptions to our nervous system. Therefore if you need to put your mobile phone near you, switch it off first.

DON'T SLEEP WITH MAKE UP

People who sleep with make up might have skin problems in the long run. Sleeping with make up will cause the skin to have difficulty in breathing and problem in perspiring You will also need a much longer time to go into deep sleep.

DON'T SLEEP WITH OTHERS' WIFE

You may never wake up again.

Rumah No. 4

2009-06-05T16:26:00.000+08:00

Aku dan Gen pilih rumah No. 4 ni sebab berhadapan dengan taman permainan. Bolehlah anak-anak bermain petang-petang. Tapi minggu lepas kami jumpa beberapa botol arak di situ. Sebak bila fikir-fikir jiran-jiran semuanya Melayu dan pelajar-pelajar Melayu dari Kolej berhampiran... Tak tahu siapa yang menogok minuman haram tu. Teringat pula berita pasal budak lelaki enam belas tahun rogol budak perempuan tiga tahun di sebuah rumah panjang sebab mabuk masa Pesta Gawai baru-baru ni. Risau aku memikirkannya.

Dua tiga hari sudah, sewaktu balik dari kerja aku lihat satu pasangan sedang bercanda di situ. Tersentak juga bila melihat kepala lelaki itu landing di riba buah hatinya. Aku pandang tempat lain. Buat-buat tak nampak. Tapi aku rasa panas pula sebab terfikir, kenapa aku pula yang kena rasa malu? Aku suruh Adam masuk dalam rumah dan atur langkah ke arah mereka.

Aku: Assalamualaikum dik. (Aku hulurkan salam)
Dia: (Terkejut. Buah hatinya segera duduk dengan sopan) Waalaikummussalam, kak
Aku: Adik ni dengan suami ke?
Dia: Eh, tak lah. Dengan kawan je. (Tersenyum tersipu)
Aku: Akak minta maaf ya, tapi akak nak tegur sikit. Kat sini semua rumah famili. Anak-anak kecil-kecil lagi… Minta adik dengan kawan ni hormat kat kitorang ni sikit, boleh?
Dia: Boleh kak. Minta maaf, kak.
Aku: Akak pun minta maaf. (Berlalu pergi)

Bila aku toleh semula, diorang dah tak ada dah. Aku pun pernah bercinta dulu, pernah nakal. Aku pun faham perasaan tu. Tapi tak pernah pula berdating depan rumah orang. Sekarang Allah swt tunjuk, biar aku rasa dan fahami apa perasaan Mak dengan Abah dulu-dulu. Ataupun itu cuma satu tanda, aku dah tua macam Mak Abah aku! T_T

Lima tahun dah yer…

2009-06-05T15:16:00.000+08:00

When Gen texted me the above sms yesterday, I already knew what he meant. It’s our 5th anniversary. But he got the date wrong. We were actually married on 5th of June, 2004. I don’t want to tell him that he got the dates wrong because actually this is the first time he remembered. I have been reminding him about our anniversaries for the last four years.

Mostly I think he remembered because of the expensive gift that I make him bought for me as our anniversary gift. This year I decide to control my own fate. If he doesn’t remember, I wont spend my time sulking. I just tell him what I want (and the awful consequences if he’s ignorant to my request).

So, today we lunch at the Noodle Station, ECM. Cheap lunch treat because he had spend most of his money for my gift. Lol. Terrible!

Gen's Mango whats-it-name Drink.

My skyblue drink and appetizers.

Gen's Maggi Goreng with eggs. Hehe.

Muka ala-ala crook promoting the chilli sauce.

My Mee Hailam. Nice but now I'm already hungry! Well they didn't actually call it that. It had a fancier name but I just can't remember.

Serious picture for five seriously tough years together. Please notice my anniversary gift. Me loike!

This one is me without my mole. Awww! Me loike also.

And finally after five years, Rotiboy recently open just around the corner. We can smell it all the way to the parking lot.

Arm

2009-05-22T11:11:00.000+08:00

I have been thinking about him a lot lately. Gen bumped into him a few weeks back in Pekan. His whole family was there. There was Inka, his beautiful wife. Gen got to meet their son and daughter plus Arm’s in-laws, Inka’s parents. They were attending Blue’s wedding. Apparently Blue did not invite us. Me and Gen.

Inka and Blue has been dating seriously back in Shah. While Arm and Blue were best friends. I had this huge crush on Arm since Form 4 and even Gen knew about it. Somehow after school, I manage to get close to Arm, and of course Blue and Inka as well because they were always together.

Then there were college. Arm and Inka went to a same college. I was offered an A-Level course which I accepted happily while Blue went to a matrix. We were all offered scholarship so we cannot just swapped places as we pleased. We still went out together, the four of us. We have late night bus trips to-fro Kuantan for holidays and I wrote letters to Arm. The usual, I like him but I cannot tell him that I like him but maybe I can make him tell me that he like me kind of stuff. LOL. Pretty shallow stuff. Our relationship is more like erm… imagine me holding a tiny daffodil or a love-me-nots flower in hand, I am going… “loves me… loves me not… loves me… loves me not… loves me… loves me not”.

Actually, the more I think about it the more I am convinced that Arm never really like me. Maybe he was amused by me, no less. However, Gen did read through Arm’s letter (he said I did not hide it or put it somewhere safe if I don’t want him to read it, duh) and he thought Arm genuinely likes me and stuff like that so then; he always refers Arm as my ex.

After a while, Blue was kicked out of the matrix. He was having a hard time or maybe he was just being a duckhead, truthfully some things never change. Blue stops hanging out with us. Slowly Arm’s letters and late night calls stop coming in as well. Imagine me holding that daffodil again. Somehow once he call or write again, I will always leap on my feet and put my hopes up high again. Until…

Until I bumped into Inka in the doorway of my hostel. It was the end of the semester. She comes with Arm (Arm waited outside but I didn't bother to see him) to take Arm’s younger sister and her stuff back to Kuantan (She’s my junior and they have to clear their room for the year-end semester break and we do talk to each other and once she told me that she don’t like Inka because she always hang out at their house and I am secretly pleased-my bad).

It was not a pleasant conversation with Inka and I cannot recall her or my exact word. It was a few days before the A-Level exam and I was really upset. I went to Joy’s room and cried my heart out. It was something like, Inka knew about our letters but she is with Arm now and I should keep my hand off her guy or something like that. How should I feel? Arm ditched both me and Blue and starts going out with his best friend’s girlfriend! The truth is, they deserve each other.

Though I don’t want to know about them, friends keep me posted about them. I know that Arm furthered his studies overseas and Inka ditched college to follow him there. They were married in 2004. Now Gen is telling me that they are both working at the same place. I figure out that it would not be hard to anticipate that. We had our life sorted out and we were just not meant for each other.

Okay, when I said sorted out, I mean the story did not end there. I was crying in Joy’s room and she ran out of words to console me and she was really worried because we will have our big exam in a few days time. Her boyfriend (now hubby), Neil was Gen’s unimates. So, I’m not shocked when Gen come to visit me the next day.

I was still sulking but I went out with him because I was really starving. We went to the famous maple and talk. We have been hanging out together with some other friends and he knows that I liked Arm but he was cool with being my friend. His exact words to me were, ‘tak pe lah kalau (Arm) tak nak. Nih, aku ni, aku nak…’ At that moment I cannot believe he said that to me. After the heart-wrenching incident, the last thing that I would want is to embark on another relationship, a rebound. I thought he was joking but he was dead serious. He said he really liked me and he kept his mouth shut because he knew I liked Arm so much.

Well, I’m not done sulking, yet. He’s an inconsiderate guy! I felt like snapping at him. But, I cannot actually tell him off because I might loose a very good friend. I ask him to give me some time and I’m not ready yet, yada-yada stuff. Gen was very patience. Eventually I accepted him because it was easy to love him.

But today, while writing this, I’m thinking, it must be really hard for Gen if he really likes me when I keep talking on and on about Arm. Gen is a considerate guy after all. Maybe he blurted it out to make me feel better or seeing an ‘open space’ he cannot keep it as a secret anymore. Gosh, this really is a long entry.

Okay, other that the fact that Gen bumped into him, the reason that I write this all down is because our friend posted Gen’s old pic in FB. It was back in Shah when I had nada feelings for him. When I look at the pic closely, I was really shocked to discover that it was Arm standing at the back (the one in white shirt). Hehe. Clearly Gen was far more handsome than Arm back then. Well, life really works in a mysterious way.

And Gen, I really love you for all the above and much more. You are my incosiderately-considerate-whatever guy. Happy Five Years together.

Hari ini bawa Tupperware untuk tapau, guna Recycled Grocery Bag untuk beli barang, mungkin esok boleh tanam pokok pula....

2009-05-19T11:18:00.000+08:00

Rasanya sejak masih bersekolah, guru-guru telah menekankan yang kita perlu memelihara alam sekitar. Kita juga didedahkan dengan masalah kenaikan suhu sedunia 'global warming' melalui media semasa. Yang sebenarnya kita boleh membantu mengurangkan bebanan ini melalui cara kita sendiri. Biarlah orang nampak tindakan saya sebagai suatu yang amat kecil dan tiada sinifikasi dengan jumlah peduduk dunia yang berbilion-billion jumlahnya tapi sekurangnya saya telah lakukan 'bahagian' saya.

Grocery bag yang sentiasa berada di bawah tempat duduk pemandu dalam cbk. Saya akan mengeluarkannya setiapkali ingin membeli barang. Senang saja bukan? Tak perlu lagi menggunakan beg plastik yang tidak boleh dinyahlupus. Ia juga boleh dibasuh kalau berbau busuk ala belacan atau tertumpah darah ikan etc.

Haha. Ini pula sarapan pagi saya pada hari ini. Nasi Kerabu Daging Bakar beli di Restoran Midah. Mula-mula saya agak malu untuk membawa bekal tupperware sendiri tapi kemudian saya fikir, kenapa pula saya harus rasa malu? Saya sepatutnya merasa bangga, kan. (Bukan bangga sebab pakai tupperware ya (T_T) ). Bangga kerana saya sayangkan bumi saya dan inilah cara saya membuktikannya.

Nasi Kerabu ini tetap sedap, tak perlu letak dalam bekas polistrene yang tak boleh dinyahlupus. Tak susah pun nak buat, kan. Kita semua boleh buat. Anda bagaimana?

One Womb and Three Fetishes

2009-05-13T11:08:00.000+08:00

Adam, Hannah and Nadia have different habit or may I call it as fetish? I have no idea that their preferences would be very different from each other. I soon realize that every child is unique in their own way and truthfully, that what make each one of them very special.

Adam is a milk-bottle-hugger. He will always have a milk bottle stuffed in his mouth to help him to sleep. When he was small, my mom told me to keep a feeding bottle near him when he fell asleep so he can grab it anytime he wake up and continue sleeping again. This method does in a way prolonged his sleeping time but the bad consequence is that his front rabbit teeth start protruding in an unattractive manner and rot.

He used to have the milk bottle stuck in his mouth even when he plays. It took us almost a year to get rid of his bad habit so now he only drinks milk to sleep. There’s nothing much we can do about his protruding front teeth but we make sure he brush his teeth at least once a day. Hopefully his permanent teeth will come out just fine.

Hannah is an index and middle finger sucker. She will also need a blanket or small towel, nappy or my shirt to hold (or sometimes stuff it into her nostril) in order to lull her to sleep. So far her fingers are okay other than it gets chips and wrinkled easily. Her teeth are also okay.

Hannah was breastfed until she’s eight months old (until I’m pregnant again). Then she had difficulties to adapt to the formula milk and she had stop drinking milk since she’s two years old. I have been feeding her Milo and cordial syrup and hope that she will not miss those entire nutrients that she should because she did not drink formulated milk.

Nadia needs a pacifier/soother to sleep. Her favourite is the one with a curve. Imagine loosing her pacifier in Genting and I have to rock her back and forth to sleep. I did brought two pacifiers and one is then missing, the other is left in the car and Gen is too lazy to get it. As todate, we have bought at least more than a dozen pacifiers for her.

Now we try to minimize her clinging-ness to the pacifier hoping that we can get rid of it soon. I had tried to teach her to snug the blanket to sleep. Hopefully it will be able to lull her to sleep.

Genting 2009: suka sangat blogger.com sebab boleh upload banyak gambar!

2009-05-11T15:35:00.000+08:00

Kali pertama bercuti bersama-sama. Agak thrilled jugak sebab macam tak confident sangat, tak tahu kitorang boleh handle all three Adam, Hannah dan Nadia. Tapi, Alhamdulillah everything went well and we had so much fun.

Nadia dengan gaya pelik, hairan bin ajaib. Stroller pinjam dari Abelong Amei sebab tak jumpa stroller kitorang kat mana.

Nadia dengan Azhan. Abelong kena beli stroller baru sebab Gen kantoi mencilok stroller Azhan. Hehe.

Kat arked, Hannah behind the wheels. Eksyen ajer.

Adam pun serious. Eksyen ajer lebih.

In the morning, Hannah Hip Hop Princess. At breakfast table, we are ready to play!

Nadia with Gen. Seriously si Kenit ni tak takut apa-apa pun. Maybe we should put her on the Corkscrew Ride and see whether she screams or not.

Muka cuak Hannah sebab dia nampak badut kat entrance. Duh! Lepas tu lansung tak nak berjalan, Gen kena dukung.

Berehat di kedai Coklat. Gen dah penat dukung Hannah!

Tekun mendengar penerangan dari Abelong Amei, our tourist guide.

Lunch at food court. Adam with Ayah Long and cuz Azhan. Ayah Long is Gen's eldest brother.

Adam berlagak macho tapi sebenarnya takut sebab naik sorang-sorang.

Tak tahu dah apa lagi yang Hannah takut.

Nadia on the swing. Baru bangun tidur.

"Macam nak hujan la, Mama!"

Tukang pegang candy.

Masuk indoor pulak, hari hujan. Tapi tak tahu la nama ride yang ni. By this time, Adam dah pandai posing secara otomatik. Tak perlu bagi arahan lagi.

Hannah takut lagi sebab tengok entrance Rumah Hantu or izit Ripley's entrance (?!). Please notice the couple behind us. They cannot stop touching each other. Awww! Overdose of PDA (Public Display of Affection).

Gondola River Ride. Hehe. Belasah je nama dia, tak ingat.

Muka paling excited, kalah muka anak-anak. Hahah!

Breakfast sebelum balik Kuantan. Peraduan melekat bintang di dagu.

Peserta kedua acara melekat bintang di dagu.

Pemenang acara makan mee goreng tercomot.

On our way back. Kepenatan. Hannah takut jalan belok-belok. Masa naik Genting tak perasan sebab dah malam. Hannah sakit perut dan pening kepala sampai tertidur.

Adam pun tidur jugak. Mama pun rasa mengantuk nak tidur. Hehe. Biar Gen bawak kereta sorang-sorang. Huhu.

A Camwhore Named Yongkie

2009-05-06T11:24:00.000+08:00

This blogpost is my honest compliment to Yong and shall not in any other way to be misunderstood that I am trying gaining ABPBH sms votes or trying to win the Paya Besar by-election or something. This comes from the heart.

Yong is really a happy go lucky chick. She’s fun to be with and of utmost importance is that she really appreciates her friends, and mind you, she had like tonne and tonne of friends everywhere.

Yong and family are in Kuantan for Labour Day and they manage to spend some time with my family. On her previous holiday trip here, she even comes to Taman Guru (Mom's house) to see me when I cannot go out and see her! How cool is that? Curi this photos from her FB. Cute eh? Hope she don't mind.

But the real amazing thing about being Yong is that she manages to snap pictures in such a crowded area and it only takes her about two seconds and its perfect. She captured everything!

Truthfully, I am flattered that I am one of Yong’s many friends. Hope we can do this again and again! Love you!

What happens when you left your phone camera in the car

2009-05-05T12:29:00.000+08:00

I'm uploading images from my phone to my computer and surprised to find these pictures. I think he took these while waiting for me outside the bank. Love the pics, Love them all. Muaaahs.

Gen at the backseat with Hannah and Nadia.

Adam the co-pilot as always.

Happy bunch.

I Hate My Chinese Zodiac

2009-04-27T15:02:00.000+08:00

I am born in the year of the Snake. Not a good animal. I am not a person who relies on this entire zodiac mumbo-jumbos but sometimes, I think it make sense, and sometimes it helps me to figure myself out.

I think the great snake in me is the part that I can hold grudge for an awfully long time and length. I have been thinking about a way to put it all to rest, for good. But sadly, I can’t. I can forgive but I cannot forget. I can also put an extra mile’s effort just to make them in trouble. Owh! I’m such a terrible person but I’m actually really fed-up with this Restoran Hafizan, No. 67, Jalan Haji Abdul Aziz, 25000 Kuantan, Pahang Darul Makmur. (Opposite Jelita).

First it was my lunch, plain rice, soup (practically salted water) and Ikan Keli Masak Pedas costs RM4.70. Cutthroat! I boycott the place for more than a month. Then I went there again, this time specifically avoiding the Ikan Keli. Second time, my plain rice, soup (again, salted water), sambal belacan and Ikan Kerisi Goreng Bodoh costs me RM4.50!! Craazy! No veggie! I totally ban the place.

Last Saturday, I was really late. 10 am from home and I cannot tapau decent breakfast on my way to the office. So, I went to this Hafizan to tapau, half-heartedly. Their food is so pricey, so I’m not surprised that the breakfast is still served. I choose (self service) Nasi Minyak with Ayam Masak Merah. The Acar is already finished, I don’t mind, maybe they can lessen the price (wistful thinking). At the counter:-

Pakcik: Tiga Ringgit (I still think it should be RM2.50 with no Acar, incomplete set!)
Me: (sadly gave him RM50.00, take THREE (3) pieces of tissue and waited for my change)
Pakcik: Tiga setengah!
Me: Kenapa pulak? (Shocked)
Pakcik: Tisu tu, kita sediakan untuk orang makan kat sini, kalau bungkus, lap pakai kain sendiri. Ambil banyak-banyak…. (keep on babbling with a loud voice but I cannot concentrate)
Me: (Controlling my anger, slowly takes the tissue out, peel one and put back inside my plastic, put another two tissues on the counter. I want to scream at him but I said nicely with a smiling face) Kalau macam ni-lah, pakcik… saya memang tak datang sini dah lain kali.
Pakcik: (Jerkah) Hei, kalau sekarang ni tak nak makan pun tak apa! Ni Pakcik tau nih! Pakcik!! (I don’t know what that supposed to mean. It's like, hei, ini Jebat lah, Jebat)
Me: (I had enough of him and his PMS, shoved the food to him, raised my voice) Bagi balik duit saya. Dah-lah tak ada Acar, saya tak kesah pun. Patutnya nasi saya murah sikit.
Pakcik: (Said nothing, growled at me and gave me RM47.00)
Me: (Took the money and food with trembling hand. I should have insist on my money and cancel my order altogether but I’m trying to control my anger and not make a scene, so I left).

It is absolutely horrible. I have never been so mad. I don't want to be rude to him because he's an old Malay man. This even beat the last time with Lim in Maybank. So, today I found my-hard-to-forgive-snake-self lodging a formal report at Kementerian Perdagangan Dalam Negeri Dan Hal Ehwal Pengguna, Tingkat 4, Wisma Persekutuan, Jalan Gambut, 25000 Kuantan, Pahang Darul Makmur.

I know he can deny it once the Officer comes (and check whether he charge for his tissue without putting a proper sign) but I just want him to remember me. He'll definately know it's me who complaint against him.

Berfoya-foya di Sushi King, East Coast Mall.

2009-04-24T15:05:00.001+08:00

Semalam, ada client Ms Foo belanja makan. Ada ke, budak2 ni ajak makan KFC? Dengan penuh semangat, aku ajak diorang makan di Sushi King. Tapi setiap orang makan tak boleh lebih RM15, bajet untuk tax dan service charges dan tak boleh ambil food dari conveyor belt. Hikhikk. Dan semua orang kena himpit2 naik cbk. Huhu.

Me, Lily and Zainal. Lily tak boleh makan di KFC sebab takut nanti ada orang order food dengan dia. Haha. Gurau ajer! Btw, kalau dia pakai seluar biru, lengkap la uniform KFC. LOL. Sorry, Lily, gurau lagi!

Lily and Zainal. Kongsi makanan sebab mee Lily macam baru keluar dari freezer. tak sedap lansung.

Gambar mee yang tak sedap itew. Lain kali jangan order, yerk! Tak tahu apa nama dia. Dah try letak wasabi, kicap, perah limau etc tapi masih lagi tak sedap.

My food. Sedap. Macam seafood platter kot plus rice. Habis in 10 mins.

Ini Ms. Foo. Kena terima kasih dengan dia sebab client dia yang belanja. Btw, nasib baik client tak ikut sekali. Please excuse tangan Ms Teo sebab malas nak edit gambar. Memang kuat bercerita, tuh.

Ms. Teo. Kalau tengok muka memang tak sangka dia ni banyak cakap.

Food Ms. Teo. Sedap jugak, macam chicken chop. Boleh order lain kali. Terima kasih Ms. Foo, terima kasih anonymous client. Panjang umur, boleh belanja lagi. Hehe.

School Part 2

2009-04-24T10:42:00.000+08:00

Adam has start schooling early this year (2009). So this post is actually a bit outdated. Although he is only 3+ years old, I have faith in Adam attending school because Adam does not act like any other boy his age. Adam is a very responsible kid and he understands a lot of things that sometimes I think he thinks too much (Please ignore this if you don't understand what i am saying).

At first, it was really hard to wake him and to get him ready for school but later, he always wake up by himself at eight am. Always ready to go to school. Unless if he is not in good mood, like last time when Gen is not around.

Once Adam is ready, he have to wait for me to put my clothes on, make-up and tudung. He will end up saying 'Mama ni lambat la!'. Please notice the dark rings underneath his eyes, a proof of lack of sleep. He stayed up with Gen last night, maybe watching movies kot.

Since I am always late, he will starts the car, warm it up and wait for me to lock the grill. Sometimes, he will lock us out of the car after starting the engine because he's cautious. I always have the spare car keys around, on stand-by, just in case.

Us in the car, please notice that the dark rings underneath his eyes were gone. He jogs around and end up sweating early in the morning. This morning he asks me, 'Eh, Mama tak buang sampah ke?'. Duh... my little walking and talking reminder. Thanks for reminding me.

This is Adam, in front of his school, Tadika Iman- Interactive Mind Active Nature.

Kerana Facebook tak boleh nak upload gambar, jadi semua gambar pun diuploadkan disini.

2009-04-20T10:11:00.000+08:00

Pagi Ahad yang aman damai. Semua orang malas nak bangun (Mama dan Babah je tu). Adam pukul enam setengah dah kejut "Mama, bangun hari dah siang" sebagai akibat dijanjikan boleh bawa basikal dan bermain di taman pada malam sebelumnya. Lepas mandi terus bawa basikal tepi kereta. Nasib baik tak larat angkat, kalau tak tentu Adam dah angkat masuk Hilux sendiri.

Adam dah boleh bawak basikal. Kejap aje dah pandai. Berposing dengan menarik sekali tapi kedekut. Beg Mama tak boleh tumpang di belakang.

Hannah, drama Queen. Kalau ambil gambar sengaja berlagak ceria walaupun baru lepas menjerit sebab basikal tak bergerak. Hehe.

Lupa bawa stroller Nadia dan selipar dia juga. Babah kena dukung. Mama sibuk sebab... sebab nak ambil gambar dan bawa beg bekal yang berat. Kami dapati Hannah mempunyai masalah untuk menumpukan perhatian kerana dia selalu bawa basikal ke tepi sebab sibuk tengok orang lalu-lalang.

Berehat sebentar. Kepenatan. Air bekal Barbie Hannah yang Adam tak mahu minum sebab "air wawan" (air perempuan) tapi bila dah penat dan dahaga, dia sebat ajer.

Adam baru lepas jatuh basikal sebab jalan tak rata. Minggu depan Babah janji nak pergi Taman Teruntum pulak. Kat sana ada jalan interlocking sesuai untuk berbasikal. Oh, btw, ini adalah di Taman Gelora, dulu memang favourite spot tempat Mama dengan Babah berdating.

Hannah dengan basikal kesayangan warna purple. Kalau bawa, tak boleh kayuh satu pusingan penuh. Akan kayuh sikit-sikit asalkan boleh bergerak.

Hannah lagi selepas jatuh sebab sibuk pandang tempat lain. Kami mendapati Hannah juga takut jambatan, tasik, angsa dan batang pokok yang berjuntai. Perlu diawasi dan dielakkan lain kali sebab dia akan menjerit sekuat hati sehingga orang semua pandang dan menyangka kami membuli Hannah.

Balik rumah tidur kepenatan sehingga pukul tiga petang.

Hari Ahadku yang sangat ideal.

This is an emotional-heart-wrenching post, so please don’t read if you are happy and content with your love life

2009-04-14T15:29:00.000+08:00

When Gen leaves for the 4x4 Challenge on Thursday, and I have to send Adam to school, Hannah and Nadia to Nanny, and there was a massive traffic congestion of 3 km because a trailer had hit the divider. So a two lane road is blocked and we have to wait for them to move the trailer to bypass the accident site.

On Friday Adam refused to take a bath and go to school and I’m running late and a bit temper-ish.

Plus, I’m working on Saturday. Crap.

And truth be told I miss you

And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face

Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell

When you walk my way

Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell

Gen was back Sunday night as he promised. And I was trying hard not to tell him I miss him. I miss having him around to prepare milk for Nadia and Adam in the middle of the night. Huhu…

He looks at me, maybe to assess the seriousness of my cold shoulder treatment.

Can’t read my, can’t read my
No he can’t read my poker face
She got to love nobody
Can’t read my, can’t read my
No he can’t read my poker face
She got to love nobody

I won’t tell you that I love you
Kiss you or hug you

On Monday, I don’t know why I lunch with my ex-bosses, ARA and ZMT. I have been avoiding their calls politely but I’m deeply distraught and thus cannot make a right decision. We are deep in conversation, well, they are expanding, which is good and I almost nod in agreement when they offered me to work there again. What-the? I should have seen in coming. I wish I’m not in ECM having lunch with them.

Oh, won't you walk through?

And bust in the door and take me away?

Oh, no more mistakes
'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you

(Thinking of you, thinking of you)

Thinking of you, what you would do

On Tuesday (todaylah) 12.32 a.m. my phone sings Gen’s ringtone...

Dan telah ku nyanyikan kau lagu cinta
Seindahnya sinar mentari
Seanggunnya sinar rembulan

Dan telah ku nyanyikan kau lagu rindu
Kerna hati ini masih lagi lemas dalam kerinduan

Gen called. I purposely pick up after his second call. There are just so many things I want to tell him. I’m upset, he’s selfish, I’m not his air, why bother calling?

But, we went out for lunch instead.

Remember those walls I build
Well baby, they’re tumbling down
And they didn’t even put up a fight
They even didn’t make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt

*sigh*

Hannah @ Hanna Humaira Binti Norhisyam

2009-04-14T10:13:00.000+08:00

Hannah was born on 31st day of August, 2006 and was the cutest baby that I have ever seen. She was really fair with red splotches all over her face. She had long fingers with perfectly trimmed fingernails and she weights 2.8 kg which is the biggest baby that I have ever carried.

I have always wanted to name her Hannah. Her name comes from an Ibrani word means ‘filled with glory’, penuh keagungan. Nice eh? But what most people don’t know is that Gen accidentally drops the back ‘H’ somewhere on his was to the Registration Department. No kidding. We amend it later so her full name is as above.

As for Humaira, it means putih kemerah-merahan which is the colour of our National Flag representing the special Merdeka day that she was born. Creative right? Hehe

But the best part is that we all call her ‘Lala’. It was actually the nick given by Adam. When I tell him that we shall call the baby Humaira, he had a hard time pronouncing her name so he conveniently calls her as Lala. He was 14 months-old when I give birth to Hannah. So, instead of teaching him to call her properly, we all end up calling her Lala as well. Sampailah sekarang. She hardly responds to her real name, sometime she will respond to ‘Kakak’ depending on her mood but most likely to respond to Lala and she even refer to herself as Lala. As in ‘Lala nak tidur, Lala nak susu’.

So here it is my cheeky Lala.

And I simply had to upload this picture as well though this post has nothing to do with her, Miss naughty Nadia. Hehe.

Parental Guide: Part 11

2009-04-07T10:53:00.000+08:00

Anak yang kecil memang sangat nakal dan perlu diawasi sentiasa. Mereka juga mudah membuat perangai lempar tantrum yang mana kalau tidak dikawal boleh merebak dan menjangkiti anak-anak yang lain pula. Masalah utama yang dihadapi oleh ibu bapa adalah anak yang kecil ini masih belum boleh bercakap. Oleh itu, ibubapa acapkali terpaksa mengagak apa yang dikehendaki atau diperlukan oleh anak kecil tersebut.

Untuk mengelakkan perkara lempar tantrum yang berlanjutan dari berlaku, anak yang kecil ini perlulah sentiasa dipastikan berada dalam keadaan yang selesa. Lampin pakai buang perlulah sentiasa diawasi dan ditukar sekiranya telah penuh muatan dan terutamanya sekiranya ada muatan yang berbau busuk. Kerengsaan kulit juga boleh menyebabkan mereka lempar tantrum.

Pemakanan. Biasanya mereka akan lempar tantrum kalau mereka lapar. Kalau mereka tidak lapar, mereka akan lempar makanan pula ke muka anda. Oleh itu, anda perlu bersabar dan cuba pula untuk memberikan susu kepada mereka.

Sekiranya tidak berhasil juga, anda boleh cuba menidurkan mereka kerana mungkin mereka mengantuk. Lempar bantal dan selimut bersama supaya anda dapat bersama-sama ditidurkan.

Kegagalan perkara-perkara diatas menenangkan anak kecil yang lempar tantrum hanya boleh menjurus kepada dua perkara iaitu yang pertama, anak yang kecil tersebut sedang sakit. Mungkin kembung perut atau tidak sedap badan. Oleh itu, ibu bapa perlu mendukung mereka sambil mengurut belakang dengan perlahan-,lahan. Minyak yuyi cap limau juga boleh digunakan untuk meredakan masalah angin termasuk memberi mereka minum air cap badak bagi menyejukkan badan.

Perkara yang kedua, anak anda mungkin hanya meminta perhatian anda. Oleh itu, cuba meluangkan masa denga bermain-main bersama mereka.

Perkara yang paling penting ialah ibubapa perlulah banyak sabar dalam menangani masalah lempar tantrum anak-anak kerana mereka adalah amanah dari Allah. Sekiranya mereka gembira, mereka tidak akan lempar tantrum terhadap anda dan hidup anda ceria dipenuhi denga gelak tawa mereka.

Berikut adalah muka Nadia yang berseri-seri dan gembira.

Haha. Atau anda juga boleh cuba menampal sticker bintang yang bersinar-sinar supaya muka anak anda ceria seperti Nadia.

Get to know your enemy

2009-04-02T17:15:00.000+08:00

I have been tagging him ‘BJ setan’. But actually, that nickname was given by Gen, not me. I think it is because it is haunting Gen. Gen cannot say no to him. If he sick (he’s old) or needed money, Gen will always put his need first. Gen has to look at him everyday and every time, Gen’s hand will itch to touch him (LOL now BJ starts to sound like a man-biatch!). I think it is a ‘he’ because it is tough, for outdoor plus the fact that I prefer Gen to have a male companion rather than a female.

So today, I wiki-ed about him. I found out that his real name is Toyota Land Cruiser and BJ is the manufactured name to distinguish its spare parts. His other sibling is FJ. Actually I am quite impressed with his establishment because he was the first Japan product of his kind to cater the need of such vehicle because the Americans have manufactured Jeep. But he’s one real tough guy. Served the army, the police patrol and his first assignment is to climb Mount Fiji and he passed with flying colours.

BJ is one tough old guy, as he was manufactured circa 1950-1980s, so that make him as old as 60 years old! Gosh, I cannot understand why Gen loves him so much? Gen practically salivating over BJ when he first saw him at a friend’s garage.

This is the picture of him that I wiki-ed.

And this is him in real life. Same old old guy!

We can now see his younger brother on the roads nowadays Lexus LX (2007) (drool!) or Tahara and Aichi (both 2008). But I don’t know what they call it the Malaysian market. So he had managed to evolve from a station wagon/pick-up truck into a sassy SUV. Actually I won’t mind his younger brother. I will definitely love it too (much) and I will give it an appropriate nick, Lex maybe?

Lex, a total hunk on the road!

So, Gen will be spending 9-12 April with him in Sungai Lembing, Kuantan. I hope BJ can also cook for him, wash iron his clothes and do all other things for him afterwards because I’m contemplating the Ultimate Cold Shoulder Treatment: Part 2 starting from 12th April onward. Wish me luck!

Hah!

My Blonde Moment

2009-04-01T16:14:00.000+08:00

My car broke down after driving about 3 km from home this morning. The car suddenly slows down even after I keep on slamming on the gas pedal. Immediately before the u-turn, I signaled left (other drivers start honking, so I put on the emergency light) and stop at the roadside. Immediately after I slam on the brake pedal, the engine went dead. I tried to re-start the car but to no avail.

I am surprised that I’m really calm the whole time and called Gen. Actually I was wondering whether I should call him or not because I have been giving him cold shoulder treatment since Sunday because he told me that he’s leaving us for four days 9-12 April, 2009 to be exact because he’s a marshal for the Pahang 4x4 Tournament in Sungai Lembing. I promise to update on that later.

After 2 minutes thinking, I decide to call him thinking that I might as well burden him with my car problem. So, I told him the car wouldn’t start and inform him my location. Then I called Adam’s teacher because Adam will be late. Adam was also calm maybe because I act normal. Obviously he had heard my conversation with Gen and Teacher Nurul.

Adam: Kenapa Mama? Kereta rosak? (Pelat)
Mama: Iya lah, rosak pulak. Kita ni dalam kesusahan.
Adam: Mama telefon Wonderpet tak?

(Then we start singing, telefon, telefon berbunyi… Mama dan Adam dalam kesusahan… LOL.)

It took Gen half an hour to arrive at the crime scene and he immediately tried to start the car. Still cannot start. He opened the bonnet (is it called bonnet? Sorry, smaller scale blonde moment) look here and there still cannot start. Then he gets in the car and try to start it again and suddenly he asked, ‘ni ada minyak tak ni?’. Gas? OMY! Totally a blonde moment for me, I forgot to fill in the gas. I remember it had been blinking red since… OMY OMG… last Wednesday! Gen brought his friend along to check on the car and the friend cannot hide his amusement and start laughing out loud.

I was too busy contemplating the cold shoulder treatment to Gen that I forgot to fill in the gas. You see, I have to plan to come home at certain time, make sure I’m in the toilet showering every time he’s back from work, not cooking (just porridge for Nadia and Hannah and nuggets for Adam), let the house in mess (he cleaned up the house on Monday) plus practice a perfect frown when he asks question and the list is so long.

My mind is preoccupied!

Daya Kreativiti dan Estetika

2009-03-24T16:44:00.000+08:00

Balik-balik aje dari kerja, Adam tunjuk flyers dari Tadika Iman, dia cakap, ‘Kalau Mama tulis ni, nanti Adam dapat mainan,’ Aku tengok… hmmm ader je diorang ni nak buat duit. Sebenarnya kena isi borang tu, bayar sepuluh ringgit, baru dapat mainan. Kesian pulak tengok Adam ikut aku sana-sini sambil bawak flyers tu suruh aku isi. Lepas Gen balik, dia ikut Gen pulak ke hulu ke hilir. Hehe kesian anak aku yang sorang ni. Sampai meleleh air lir dia tau… siap promote kat Hannah dan Nadia juga. Tidur pun bawak flyers tu.

Pagi esoknya memang liat la Adam nak bangun pergi sekolah sebab hajat dia yang tak kesampaian semalam. Lepas pujuk-pujuk akhirnya aku tewas lagi. Kena jugak isi flyers tu, baru Adam dengan rela hati pergi mandi dan siap-siap pergi sekolah.

Kat sekolah bayar teacher sepuluh ringgit, dapatlah mainan tu. Kraftangan: Daya Kreativiti dan Estetika. Pergh macam hebat je.

Aku bawak mainan tu pergi kerja sebab sengaja nak biar Adam tertunggu-tunggu nak balik rumah petang nanti. Haha. Tak baik Mama ni. Balik-balik petang tu Adam excited giler, senyum lebar sampai ke telinga, pegang mainan tu ajak main cepat-cepat. Aku dah cakap, tunggu dulu… Kita buat sama-sama dengan Babah malam nanti. Adam pun sabar la menanti Gen balik.
Bila Gen balik, mesti lah dia nak mandi dulu, pakai baju, solat Maghrib. Aku nak masak, lepas tu nak makan malam. Akhirnya Adam tak sabar dah. Masa aku ajak dia makan malam, kertas dah bersepah-sepah kat ruang tamu. Adam Hannah dan Nadia dah buka mainan tu dan mula ‘bermain’ tanpa pengawasan ibubapa. Hasilnya…

Aku pun kena kemas, kutip balik masuk dalam plastik sampah.

Geram tau tengok diorang koyak-koyak mainan tu. Masa aku membebel tu aku cakap, ‘macam ni, baik Mama amik duit Mama sepuluh ringgit koyak-koyak… tak payah la Mama kemas korang buat sepah,’ Mulut aku tak henti-henti ngomel sepanjang aku mengemas. Aku pun kutiplah dua tiga keping gambar yang terselamat tak koyak.

Secara kesimpulannya, tak payah la korang beli mainan ni, Kalau Adam sorang, aku rasa dia akan buat betul-betul. Tapi bila dia tengok Hannah dan Nadia mula main koyak-koyak, dia pun terpengaruh lah. Lebih afdal kalau aku suruh Gen beli kad Dragonball RM2.00 tu.

Me: There goes my RM10.00 at the end of the month when everything suddenly looks pricey compared to the moment when I look at them after I got my paycheck. Ahah…

Lunch with the Girls

2009-03-19T16:25:00.000+08:00

It was us all, the girls and one very lucky guy, Adam Malik. Lieza had to bring him along because the nursery is closed (on Thursday! Suka-suka ati je kan diorang nih). Whatever it is, we were having a great lunch at Pak Akob which is well known for the delicious Ikan Patin. If you like Ikan Patin or any other ikan sungai, I can bring you there for lunch.

Yaya is in Kuantan for her younger brother’s wedding on Saturday and manage to sneak out while preparing the pelamin. Her mom must be wondering where she is. Eh, alamak, I don’t have any picture of Yaya taken. LOL. Mesti kena tembak dengan tuan rumah! We must be very busy talking and eating and taking care of Adam Malik. I upload the picture (gambar file) of the notorious Ikan Patin (Masak Asam Pedas) and forgot his friend, Ikan Krai (?!) Goreng.

When we arrived, Lieza (who is not working to-day because she will start working at the Yayasan Pahang early next month) was already there with Adam Malik. He’s so chubby that I hug him a lot and obviously he doesn’t like it. Hehe.

Noni who is supposed to be in KL today, magically appear with a sore eye. I know she wouldn’t miss our little gathering otherwise we will be gossiping about her behind her back. Ngeeeehehe. Actually, I hardly see her ‘sore eye’. She looked just fine to us.

Azy joined us later with her two children. The pic is too dark. Maybe I should consider buying an Ixus.

The lunch was great and we eat and talk and laugh a lot. I had a really great time with them. It reminds me so much of our lives back then in Shah Pekan. Yaya, Azy and I had a big crush on this Budak Kuku Hitam. Funnily nobody ends up with him. We all married some other guy. Since Azy is now single, we all started match-making her with him. Who knows? It was high school all over again.

Love you guys, we should do this again and again. Next time, i’ll promise to upload Yaya’s pics.

Brotherly-love

2009-03-16T16:16:00.000+08:00

I had this pic in my phone for a while now that I almost forgotten its existence. I think it’s cute because I caught them candidly doing this. I saw it again when I uploaded the Dragon Balls pic just now. The quality is not very good because of poor lighting. I don’t want to switch on the lights because they may startle and stop doing whatever they were doing.

Duh-huh?

2009-03-16T16:12:00.000+08:00

I had it. Usually, it only comes once but yesterday it comes in three or maybe four or maybe more. I think I was so delirious that I may not or cannot count right. Or maybe I just let the moment pass and I stop thinking all together. It was like seeing unicorns. Hell lots of unicorns. I may not make sense but I don’t even give a damn about making sense.

So I’m off to the Megamall, I’m buying Gen the Dragon Ball DVD that he wanted.

Tagged by Nenet

2009-02-12T17:06:00.000+08:00

1. I am a morning person. Everything is so bright and clear early in the morning.

2. I love routines, plans and back-up plans. It makes me less nervous.

3. I’m currently reading fan-fiction novel on Twilight. Jan got me hooked! Love Dark Edward.

4. I wish I can avoid appearing in court altogether and at the same time jealous of Nenet because she’s so good at it.

5. I love Shakira. Maybe I should take belly dancing classes. *smirk*

6. I have no ten years-ahead–of–me plan. Maybe I need one.

7. I have Breakfast Friends, Always available Friends, YM Friends,
Snaking Friends (including prolonged lunch and rewang2 friends),
Gossips Friends and FB Friends. So, which one is yours?

8. I cooked meals for my family and I’m proud of it.

9. I’m lazy. I can review one agreement for weeks.

10. I try to avoid my ex-boss. It’s a plague kinda like ex-BFs

11. I’m upset when people talk bad things about persons that I care about.

12. I love my BFF so much. You know who you are. xoxo

13. I wonder why my brother thinks that I’m mad at him.

14. I used to have a lyrics book back in SHAH Pekan.

15. I became a lawyer because I’m terrified of blood and numbers. Otherwise I’ll take medic or accountancy classes.

16. I hate being so skinny. I wish I have more ‘flesh’.

17. I’m not a good driver. A lady-driver would define my driving skills suitably.

18. I hate last minutes work, because I definitely will mess it up.

19. I used to have an imaginary fried named Mosza. He was a Philippines and his parents work here. (I cooked this up when I was in Standard 4).

20. People usually ask me whether I’m a ‘Puan’ or a ‘Cik’. Usually I’ll ask them to call me Cik Puan. Hehe.

21. I’m a hot-tempered person with a foul mouth. Not good. I’m not proud of it. So don’t mess with me when I’m tired.

22. I grow up watching Charlie’s Angels, McGyver and that car-who-can-talk and cannot relate when Gen said he watch Ultraman Taro as a kid.

23. I stay up to do housework.

24. I hate the Israelis. Try to boycott few products just to spite them.

25. I’m not a supermom. I wish I’m one. So now, ’apa yang penting… kerjasama…’

When tears are not enough

2009-02-02T16:48:00.000+08:00

It was deeply disturbing seeing and reading about the slaughtering ‘annihilation’ of the Palestinians. The pictures of the little ones in bloods crept into my usually dreamless night. I remember waking up perspiring and wondering why it had such a big effect on me. I end up making my own resolution. I cannot say that this slaughtering does not affect me in person or that I cannot do anything to stop it. There must be something that I can do. I cannot keep on crying and shed tears looking at those pictures.

Things that I can do, of which I think we all can do.

I will stop funding the Laknatullah Israelis. I have no idea that most of the products that I kept on buying every month actually produced by them or contribute to them directly or indirectly.
I will not shop in Carrefour anymore. Though I will not go there and post a hate poster on their walls, I am encouraging you all to stop shopping there. Still, I won’t hate you if you still want to go there. But picture this; every cent that you spend there pays the Israelis to keep on slaughtering the Palestinians. How’s that?

I will stop drinking Coke, Fanta, Sprite, Schewppes, Sunkist and stop dining at Starbuck and McD (which is very tough considering that I love McD so much).

I will stop buying Kleenex. I totally cannot believe that I use the three-layer-Kleenex tissue to shed my tears. Ironic isn’t it? I’m buying some other tissue brand, the cheaper Giant’s tissue. Wait I’ll check first. Ok, Giant is clear.

Next is my make-up or so-called beauty products. Though I will continue using Clinique product which I have bought previously, I will not buy any other Clinique product. Once it is finished, I will buy some other Made in Malaysia product. By the way, it’s not just Clinique. I’m boycotting Garnier, Lancome (there goes my perfume), L’oreal, Mark & Spencer, Maybelline (my lipstick, damn), and Revlon (damn again).

Now maybe I can look at those tormenting pictures and said ‘I pray that all your Israelis rot in hell, I’m not giving you any more money!!’

source http://www.inminds.co.uk/boycott-brands.html

Dream on, dream away...

2009-02-02T16:39:00.000+08:00

It was very real.

I was sitting at the KL Sentral train station waiting for a train back to Shah Alam. I was wearing a black trousers and white shirt with its sleeves rolled to my elbow. I was beaten up, tired and worn up. It was not a bad day at work, it’s a usual day. I had my torn briefcase, the next day court file and my black handbag from which my jacket hung loosely. I feel horrible, so I must have look equally horrible too.

It was five minutes to 8 pm and people are getting restless. They have announced that a train has accidentally fallen off track and, as such, there are limited coaches available for all the commuters. Some left the station but I have no other way getting back to Shah Alam.

A train comes, commuters start chasing after it, they were pushing each other and some even retaliates violently. Instead of chasing the train, I decide to remain seated and wait for the next train. I am exhausted, use up for the day. I have no energy whatsoever to get to that train. A very pregnant lady come and took a vacant seat next to mine. She started babbling and I just nod, trying to be nice while my head starts to spin. She said she had been commuting for more than ten years now. She’s an auditor in KL but she stays in Bangi. The salary is good and it pays for her dream house. She had a car but she cannot beat the traffics. By this time, my head was spinning uncontrollably.

I was thinking. I don’t want to be like her. I don’t want to settle down in KL. I want to have more time with my family when I’m married. If I get back at 10 pm, my kids would already asleep and on the next day, I’ll go to work so early, that they might not wake up yet. And looking at her, she looks like she’s ready to deliver any time now and I don’t want to deliver my baby in a train station though my child would have a free passes for his whole life. Besides, what would I name him? Mohd Komuterizman? Sheesh.

Suddenly I thought, eh, I’m already married, I’m not in KL, and I’m in Kuantan. I’m with Gen, Adam, Hannah and Nadia. Then I wake up. It was just a dream but also a real one. It really happens five years ago. It’s like one part of my brain store this image for me and replays it back in my dream. Weird huh?

Actually I’ve been missing my life and friends back in KL. I wonder why I came back to Kuantan, to a meager salary when I could have made more in KL. More money to splurge, yes, but my subconscious mind is playing back one particular scene which make me change my mind.

It’s like a little pat on my back. I am reminded gently of the things that I really hate back in KL. I had made my decision and even if I had to choose again, I would choose this life, again and again.

I Miss You

2008-12-31T16:31:00.000+08:00

I was repacking my stuff over the weekends and was surprised to see so many letters in one small box. There were letters from Acedie (my soul-mate) who always talks about her cat eating or sleeping on her lap while she was playing PS.

There were also letters from Jan aka Miss Brown Sugar aka Dek Dutt who always writes lyrics which touches her heart. It was sweet and entertaining and I miss hugging her. Eda (whats her nick?) who always wishes happy holidays. Kak Ita’s get well soon notes (maybe I was sick at that time), Liza aka Kak Mont. We always wrote nonsense notes e.g. a case of Cik Seri Siantan giving advice to a damsel in distress, Tuya aka Kak BUM usually write on a small cut paper fold into a card with pictures of a daisy asking for a ride home. I will reply with a date, venue and time to meet to pick her up. Cute!

OMG that was so many and so cute. I love every one of those letter. I think the letters actually help me to survive studying law. Maybe I have other boxes with similar letters and notes. I have to find it all back.

Maybe one day we can all meet up and read again those cute fancy letters and reminisce the good times that we had shared. I have one letter addressed to Scared from Fearless (I have no idea who that is or how it end up in my box). We all have funny nicknames and we always pass small notes around during lectures. Correct me if I’m wrong, but I think we also have a drawer where we put/collect our mails. Oh, I really miss those times!!

And I really miss you all, sweethearts.

Happy New Year 2009.

Easy Target

2008-12-18T16:27:00.000+08:00

Within a span of one week, two houses in our residential area have been burgled. The modus operandi is the same, they come in through the ceiling from outside of the house and they only collect small valuable items such as cash, gold, handphones, laptop etc.

Last Saturday, when our next door neighbour returns home after the holidays, they found out that their laptop and some cash missing. The robbers even left the ceiling wide open not bothering to close it back. Luckily, nobody was home and nothing else was taken.

Yesterday, another house at the fourth row was broken into (our house is in the second row). The burglar tried get into the house at 8pm. The wife who was staying alone at that time heard the noise in her ceiling went to check and saw a man open up her ceiling. He looked equally surprised to see her and fled away. Maybe he thought the house was empty. I dare not imagine the possibility if he knows the lady was staying alone and all the things that he can do to her.

Yesterday, I was staying alone with Adam, Hannah and Nadia. Gen was outstation to Kuala Tahan near the Taman Negara Reserve. At 8pm I was busy in the kitchen, preparing dinner. I have no idea about the burglary until Mak come and informed me about it after Isya’ (she always drops by everytime Gen is not around). Abah went to that house while the police were still there. The police said there are a few reported similar cases and so far, the burglar chooses empty houses. Abah is a bit upset because he was worried about me and the kids and the police seem to take the matter lightly because there is no injury or fatality reported.

Abah and Mak end up sleeping in our house. We don’t have any spare bed, so they both slept on spread quilt in the living room. I know the hard floor must be harsh on their tender old bones but I was so afraid sleep alone and to tell them otherwise. Gen promised to settle his matter as fast as he could so that he can come back today.

Last night. I sleep with my car keys and I will switch on the alarm if anything happen. It’s a tip that I got from a safety class organized by the Bar. However, we were reminded that the burglar will react differently if they felt threatened. I’m not sure whether I can think (or even breathe) if I come across the situation. We were reminded that no matter how valuable our possessions are, our life and our loved ones are the most important things in the world.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, peliharalah kami dari sebarang kejahatan dan kemungkaran. Amin.

Abah

2008-11-17T16:19:00.000+08:00

I think I always talked about Mak in my blog. The main reason is we always talked. Even when I’m away, I’ll call and talk to her. Truthfully, I did not spend that much quality time with Abah. He’s a very conservative guy, and he doesn’t want to listen to the story of my life. Lately, I noticed that he looked so much older. I have taken some time to notice certain things about Abah that I don’t think others know.

Abah use fork and spoon while dining. Actually, Abah cannot feel his fingers sometimes. If he eats using his fingers, the rice will fall down uncontrollably as he looses his grip. I can see that this frustrates him so much.
Abah always use the same fork and spoon. Small light spoon with longer handle and a small fork. I think it is easier for him to maneuver the spoon.
Abah eat a small portion of meal every time. I remember my sister in law thought that Abah didn’t like her cooking. The truth is that he’s diabetic, though he’s not on insulin or anything, he’s being cautious. Around him, I get to understand that it’s not about others; it’s just the way he is.
Abah is a cautious driver. Gen said he had never met a person that measure parking his car (at home) using car lights like Abah. When Abah parks his car, he will switch on his highlights and stops when it reached certain point. He does this perfectly and the car will end up exactly one inch from the front door grill. The sad thing is, I think his vision and his grip is not as good as before because he keeps on slamming on the front grill, now so often.
Abah is a man of few words. Now, he prefers to keep quiet than talking. My brothers and sisters thought that he’s annoyed or simply ignored them. Actually, he cannot hear very well, you have to speak up in order for him to hear you. Another thing is that he had looses most of his teeth. So his words are sometimes slurred, inaudible and if he talks too much, he might emit saliva while talking. He hates all this.
I tried to talk to him as much as I talked to Mak, my avid listener. Sometimes I succeeded but most of the time I failed. I talked to him about his health, his check-ups, medical appointment, and his coming eye operation. Most of the time during our conversation, I noticed that he get distracted easily. Distracted as in drifting away. I’m not sure what causes this. I still tried now and then.

The good thing about Mak is that she can talks, nags even when Abah did not pays her any attention. I just hope that Long, Angah, Kak Miah and Ateh see Abah the way I see him, the reasons for his being. He may shut himself inside his room when we come home and our children wreck the house, but if we didn’t come home, he will ask Mak, ‘Mana orang ni semua, lama dah tak balik?’

How Smart is Your Right Foot?

2008-10-27T15:17:00.000+08:00

Just try this. It is from an orthopedic surgeon………… This will boggle your mind and you will keep trying over and over again to see if you can outsmart your foot, but, you can’t. It’s preprogrammed in your brain!

1. While sitting where you are at your desk in front of your computer, lift your right foot off the floor and make clockwise circles.

2. Now, while doing this, draw the number ‘6′ in the air with your right Hand.

Your foot will change direction. I told you so!!! And there’s nothing you can do about it! You and I both know how stupid it is, but before the day is done you are going to try it again, if you’ve not already done so.

Please excuse my driving

2008-10-12T15:05:00.000+08:00

Saw the sign at the gift shop in Megamall during lunch hour. I just cannot resist buying it because it is so true. So, everytime I’m driving with my three little angels, I put up the sign. I’ve been honked at, well at least now I can inform them the reasons behind my terrible road manner.

Blogging

2008-09-19T15:00:00.000+08:00

I came across an interesting website which surveys the most viewed female blog in Malaysia. Here are the top five of them together with my reviews. As if that really matters. But it is quite fun, reading the blogs but sometimes it’s a bit shallow and mostly self-centered. Whose wasn’t? LOL

http://inibelogsaya.blogspot.com/
A model, previously on Malaysian Dreamgirl competition. A cute blog and funny ramblings. Talks about kids and cats too, my favourite two topics. Hehehh. Other than that, she blogs about: her life, hair, nails and fashion. She had 352,831 hits.

http://www.redmummy.com
A red-hot mom who likes things red. She talks about life, her kids, hubby, fashion and whatever in her mind. Quite interesting. She had 372,834 hits.

http://www.nurulizzah.com she needed no introduction, the Puteri Reformasi. I can understand why people would want to read her blog. Well, she blogs about: Freedom of self-expression, reformation of MALAYSIA, Anwar Ibrahim and of course PKR. Serious stuff for serious people. She had 400,234 hits.

http://mimirahzia.blogspot.com
She’s a co-host of Teman, a travelogue on 8TV, before being replaced by Melissa Maureen. Starred in tele-movies such as Tangisan Bulan Madu, Ritma Kampus, Intan Asmara. She blogs about her acting, photoshoot, achievements in drama, telemovies and appearances in local and international publications, parties, festival. Interesting show-biz life. She had 3.4 million hits.

http://ladykiki9.blogspot.com/
She maybe cute, sweet and pretty but I have no idea what she blog about. She had like 3.9 million hits on her web page. She wrote about growing up, making mistakes and learning from them. Features most of her friends, where she hang out, food, what she eat, life, what she’s been doing and fashion, what she wears or like and want to have. It’s like reading a ‘real tv show’. Well, maybe that’s her attraction. Honestly, I have no idea why people read her blog.

So, dear friends, I think we write better than them. So, I recommend a few of my friends’ blog which is far more entertaining, ‘real’ and satisfying.

http://babyirfan.fotopages.com/
This lady is literally obsessed with her son and quits her job so that she can be a full time mother and do what she loves the most, taking great pictures and get paid while doing it. I mean, she’s my idol, man….

http://www.girl-charms.blogspot.com/
http://shikinkamal.fotopages.com/
This one is a tough mom, super-sexy-hot-mom. She’s an aero-something-something engineer, currently had her hands full developing the airbus project. Very pretty, even when she’s pregnant. A mother of three who sew beautiful gowns for her three daughters and now she’s taking orders!! OMG, can you imagine that? With all the time and energy that she had, she might be from a different planet.

We can work, we can work really hard to achieve our goals, and we often loose our self doing it. We can make other people believe that we are one hell of a career-lady. But we cannot lie to our self. There is more to life than our work; we should be doing things that we love to do once in a while.

So that, when we grow old… we will have no regrets.

Busted

2008-08-19T14:57:00.000+08:00

I confessed that I really don’t have much work to do, since early this month. Which pretty much explain why I keep blog-ing every other day. LOL. I’ve been addicted with Scrabulous now and I’ve gotten so daring that I resume playing even when my boss is around. So far, I’ve been lucky.

Today, I got busted. Was I busted? Actually I’m not sure. I hope I closed the page in time. I thought I was saved. Nevertheless I’ve been edgy since morning, half expecting my boss to say something to me if I’m really busted while playing Scrabulous.

After lunch, my boss drops a thick and heavy file on my table. It’s a litigation file. I’m going to court on Wednesday. Huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh! I’m busted. I know I am!!!

Borak-borak

2008-08-13T14:51:00.000+08:00

Masa Cash ajak keluar makan. Aku malas nak pergi.

Dua tahun lepas dia buat direct selling. Penat juga nak dengar dia bercerita. Aku memang tak minat direct selling ni tapi nak jaga hati kawan, dengar jugak lah. Tahun lepas dia mula buat insurance pula, ajak jugak aku masuk tapi aku beritahu dia, Gen tu Unit Manager kat AmAssurance, dia senyap je. Kesian la pulak tengok. Aku tolong dia setakat termampu, kenalkan dia dengan kawan-kawan yang nak ambil insurance. Pandai-pandai la dia kowteem dengan diorang sendiri.

Tapi aku pergi juga jumpa dia. Sebab dah lama dia ajak, seingat aku sebelum aku cuti bersalin dah. Jumpa kat Sara Thai, mula-mula makan saja lepas tu borak-borak, aku tak perasan pun dia nak cerita pasal apa mungkin taktik dia dah berubah sebab dulu dia terlampau direct dan obsess. Sekarang Cash dah pandai bercakap dan tackle client.

Harga minyak naik, barang mahal. Cakap pasal inflasi. Apa inflasi tu sebenarnya? Macam nilai duit kertas kita pada masa depan. Cash cakap pakai Rule 72, dia kata economist tau la teori ni.
Infation rate declared = 4%, which is bigger than 72 (the rule).
So, 72 divide by 4 = 18.So, dalam masa 18 tahun lagi value duit RM100.00 skrg akan jadi RM 50.00 sahaja.

Katalah aku simpan duit untuk Adam, Hannah dan Nadia RM2,000.00 seorang sekarang untuk diorang masuk universiti, further study etc. 18 tahun lagi aku cuma ada total RM3,000.00 sebenarnya. Itu pun kalau inflation rate tak naik lagi within that period of time. Kalau tak, lagi sikit lah saving kita sebenarnya.

Oleh itu, saving kita hendaklah cari yang dapat bagi return per year lebih besar dari inflation rate. Kalau saving dlm Tabung Haji 4.75% dan inflation rate 4%, dalam masa 18 tahun akan datang, secara teori aku akan hanya ada dapat 0.75% sahaja.

Cash pun mula buat pengiraan untuk aku. Kira… kira… sampai habis kertas. Simpan dalam FD, rate berapa pula. Simpan dalam Amanah Saham, dapat berapa pulak kalau long term nyer calculation. Akhirnya Cash cakap,”OLEH itu Ana kena simpan di dalam instrumen yang boleh bagi return yang besar dan selamat."

Cash pun buka cerita pasal CIMB Unit Trust, CIMB Wealth Advisor, advanced planning, future ongoings. Bla Bla Bla. Huhu… terkena jugak aku. Tapi memang kali ni cara dia tackle tu sangat convincing and based on facts.

Management Course

2008-08-12T13:49:00.000+08:00

Lesson 1:
A man is getting into the shower just as his wife is finishing up her shower, when the doorbell rings. The wife quickly wraps herself in a towel and runs downstairs. When she opens the door, there stands Bob, the next-door neighbor.
Before she says a word, Bob says, ‘I’ll give you $800 to drop that towel, ‘
After thinking for a moment, the woman drops her towel and stands naked in front of Bob After a few seconds, Bob hands her $800 and leaves. The woman wraps back up in the towel and goes back upstairs.
When she gets to the bathroom, her husband asks, ‘Who was that?’
‘It was Bob the next door neighbor,’ she replies.
‘Great,’ the husband says, ‘did he say anything about the $800 he owes me?’
Moral of the story:
If you share critical information pertaining to credit and risk with your shareholders in time, you may be in a position to prevent avoidable exposure.

Lesson 2:

A priest offered a Nun a lift. She got in and crossed her legs, forcing her gown to reveal a leg. The priest nearly had an accident. After controlling the car, he stealthily slid his hand up her leg.
The nun said, ‘Father, remember Psalm 129?’ The priest removed his hand. But, changing gears, he let his hand slide up her leg again.
The nun once again said, ‘Father, remember Psalm 129?’
The priest apologized ‘Sorry sister but the flesh is weak.’
Arriving at the convent, the nun sighed heavily and went on her way.
On his arrival at the church, the priest rushed to look up Psalm 129
It said, ‘Go forth and seek, further up, you will find glory.’
Moral of the story:
If you are not well informed in your job, you might miss a great opportunity.

Lesson 3:
A sales rep, an administration clerk, and the manager are walking to lunch when they find an antique oil lamp. They rub it and a Genie comes out.
The Genie says, ‘I’ll give each of you just one wish.’
‘Me first! Me first!’ says the admin clerk. ‘I want to be in the Pulau Redang, driving a speedboat, without a care in the world.’
Puff! She’s gone.
‘Me next! Me next!’ says the sales rep. ‘I want to be in Pulau Tioman, relaxing on the beach with my personal masseuse and the love of my life.’
Puff! He’s gone.
‘OK,! you’re up,’ the Genie says to the manager.
The manager says, ‘I want those two back in the office after lunch.’
Moral of the story: Always let your boss have the first say.

Lesson 4
An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing. A small rabbit saw the eagle and asked him, ‘Can I also sit like you and do nothing?’
The eagle answered: ‘ Sure, why not.’
So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the eagle and rested.
All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.
Moral of the story: To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.

Lesson 5
A turkey was chatting with a bull. ‘I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree,’ sighed the turkey, ‘but I haven’t got the energy.’
‘Well, why don’t you nibble on some of my droppings?’ replied the bull. ‘They’re packed with nutrients.’
The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree. The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch. Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of the tree.
He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree.
Moral of the story: Bullshit might get you to the top, but it won’t keep you there.

Lesson 6
A little bird was flying south for the Winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field. While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him.
As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy.
A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.
Morals of the story: (1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy. (2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.(3) And when you’re in deep shit, it’s best to keep your mouth shut!

Snippets

2008-08-11T13:44:00.000+08:00

Aku dan Gen tengok TV, dah pukul sepuluh malam. Aku pun cakap.
"Boo letih la..dah lewat ni, Boo nak tidur lah…."

Aku pun pergi dapur nak tutup tingkap dapur, nanti masuk pulak lipas…leceh pulak nanti… Busuk pinggan mangkuk. Dah tu, ada pulak periuk rice cooker dalam sink. Berkerak, so rendam lepas makan tadi… basuh jap… Susun pinggan kat rak, lap dapur..terpercik kena sambal ikan bilis tempoyak kesukaan Gen masa masak malam tadi… ok settle…

Check air panas dalam flask… takut habis pulak nanti malam anak nak susu…Hmm memang dah kering pun flask ni, jerang la air… sementara tunggu air masak, nampak pulak susu baby dah habis….buka almari, amik tin susu baru. Nasib baik aku dah beli banyak-banyak awal bulan hari tu. Buka fridge pula, …ishh…ni lauk bila ni, semalam kot…dah beku dah…basuh la kejap….lalu tepi bilik belakang, masukkan baju kotor dalam washing machine… penat dah ni, set timer washing machine, pagi besok boleh sidai terus…sidai kain lap je lah… tik…bunyi air dah masak…salin air dalam flask…ok settle…

Baru teringat tak solat lagi… jalan masuk bilik., Gen tengah tengok tv lagi…hmmm… CSI la tu tak habis lagi. Nampak pulak beg Adam dengan Hannah untuk hantar ke Nanny esok…check…baju empat pasang seorang, towel mandi Adam, seluar dalam Power Rangers, towel mandi Barbie si Hannah, towel kecil utk selsema…calamine lotion untuk sapu ruam… alamak..terlupa pulak masukkan botol…basuh botol jap…ok settle…

Ternampak pulak beg baby Nadia. Baju tiga pasang, kain lampin, tuala kecil… masa kecil ni dia tak pandai demand lagi… Dah besar nanti nak Power Rangers lah, nak Power Puff Girls lah.. Hehehh sabar je lah. ok settle…

Mana pulak beg nak pergi kerja… Hannah lah main hari semalam nih, sampai kena sorok letak tinggi kat atas almari. Berhabuk pula. Lap habuk. Hmmmm.. esok nak pakai beg coklat ni lah, Asyik-asyik pakai beg hitam tu je…salin jap barang-barang dalam beg coklat…check semua takut la tetinggal apa-apa..leceh pulak..selalunya barang yang tertinggal tu la yang nak pakai nanti…hishhh sempit la beg ni…hangin je… tak settle…

Nak kena beli ni beg baru…rasanya cukup bulan ni ada Bonuslink Member Sale kat Parkson…. Mana katalog tadi, ek? Hah, ni dia…ok, catit jap kat yellow sticker, nanti lupa..ok settle…

Tetiba dengar suara Gen…"Boo buat apa lagi tu..tadi kata nak tidur…"….
"Iyalah nak tidur lah ni..nak Isyak jap…"
Masuk toilet..buat apa-apa yang patut…cuci muka dulu….gosok gigi…solat Isyak…pakai moisturiser…pakai under eye treatment cream… lip balm… nak lawa and maintain cun punya pasal lah ni… Nanti orang kata patut la muka dia macam tak sudah macam tu, anak dah tiga…huhuhuhu… tak ke haru? Ok settle…

Buka almari…emmm…hari Isnin, eh, nak pergi Court kena pakai baju black and white… gosok kejap..check baju Gen,
“Abang pakai baju apa esok?”
”Tak yah gosok” Gen jawab.

Hmmm pergi site la tu esok tu…kat bilik belakang… gosok baju…gantung elok-elok… kalau rendah sangat nanti Adam dengan Hannah tarik pulak buat main.. Kemaskan almari baju.. Eh, ada pulak baju kotor Gen terselepet kat belakang pintu… Masukkan seluar dengan baju kotor Gen dalam washing machine….ok settle..

Dengar suara Gen lagi…"Abang dah mengantuk ni.."
Dalam pada nak masuk ke bilik… check jap pintu depan ni…Ya Allah! tak kunci lagi…grill pun tak tutup… ni kalau tak check ni, senang-senang je orang masuk rompak rumah aku…. kunci… ok settle….

Ni mainan ni bersepah-sepah…flash card pintar lah, jam Ben-10 lah, masukkan la dalam bakul mainan budak-budak ni…banyaknya…sampai bawah meja makan pun ade…aduh….ok settle
Ok dah boleh baring…aduh sakitnya pinggang-ku…

Cium si comel satu, cium si comel dua dan cium si comel tiga ni. Kejap…selimutkan diorang…Kalau tak malam karang, berebut selimut dengan Hannah. Laa… kenapa basah pula si kenit nih …emm, tukar pampers. Kena tukar la pampers comfort nih tak bagus la brand ni, tukar pakai Drypers ok kot. Nanti ingat masa beli barang diorang awal bulan depan. ..ok sayang tidur k… kalau boleh jangan lah bangun tengah malam ni ek… tidur sampai pagi k…good night… sweet dreams...

Aaahh…sedapnya dapat baring…mana pulak minyak panas nih…sakit pinggang… Mak cakap sebab inject family planning. Ada ke? Hah? Sambil sapu minyak panas,,, Setkan alarm handphone…set dalam otak program kerja esok…kena sampai court pukul 9.00 tak boleh lambat ..

Ahh…boring…panas lah pulak minyak nih. Dulu, mula kahwin tidur pakai minyak wangi perfume… dah empat tahun kahwin, tidur pakai minyak panas, busuk la… Hehe. Tapi tak apa lah, asalkan sedap, lega boleh lelapkan mata…

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani. Ya Allah…terima kasih untuk rezekiMU hari ini,…mohon keberkatan dari mu Tuhan…

Gen pun bangun tutup tv…
"Abang dah ngantuk sangat ni…nak tidur lah… Eh, Boo nak tengok tv ke?"
“Tak”

Selang seminit …dengar bunyi Gen berkeruh…dah agak dah….

Gotcha

2008-08-07T13:41:00.000+08:00

Did you hear the prank that Rudy made this morning to his mechanic? It was aired on Hitz and it was hilarious! I laugh so loud alone in the car that the other driver might think I’m crazy. But it was a good laugh.

It goes like this, Rudy just pick up his car from his mechanic, this one Indian guy. While driving back to the station, he called the mechanic and informs him that the car brake pedal failed to function. Rudy also aired some sound effects that he hits some other car, accelerating car sound and he also shouts at other people to clear off his way. It took the poor mechanic a few seconds before he started panicking, asking Rudy to slam on the brake pedal on and off. Rudy was very good in acting panicky as well. He then shouted at Rudy to use the handbrakes but Rudy said it also jammed. He asked Rudy’s location and current car speed and the mechanic even talk in Tamil, so he must be really panicky.

Rudy told him that his current speed is 60 km/h, so he told Rudy to open the door and jump out of the car. He even told Rudy that Rudy will not get killed if he jumps off the car at that speed. It was hilarious. Finally there is aloud crash and Rudy gave out a loud cuss and then everything went silent. He poor mechanic keep on calling “Rudy, Rudy, are you ok” and he even shouted at some other people at his workshop.

Rudy finally explained and said sorry that he put a prank on the poor mechanic and he even has the guts to ask for a discount. But everything went well but I think he cursed Rudy in Tamil in the end. Well, Rudy deserved it. LOL

Me: I still remember five years ago when Hitz broadcast in Malay for April Fool Special Edition. I got fooled! I even checked the radio tuning a few times to make sure that I got the right station. They even had Afdlin Shauki as a guest deejay and it was hilarious as well.

Friday Blues

2008-07-25T13:37:00.000+08:00

For the first time, today I have to send Adam and Hannah to their nanny house before going to work. Usually Gen will send Adam and Hannah and I will send Nadia off in the morning. However, Gen come back at 2 a.m. in the morning from Kuala Lipis and at 7 a.m. he’s already on his way to Kuala Lumpur.

I don’t want to trouble their nanny by sending them so early in the morning, so I volunteered to send them there for Gen. I will definitely be late for work.

All of them were still sleeping went I put them in the car. Sigh… Adam is so heavy. He’s already 15 kilos, not that I’m complaining but after giving birth to Nadia I only weight 40 kilos. I send Nadia to her nanny in Inderapura (Nadia still sleeping) then I head to Kempadang.

Once I park the car and open the door, Hannah went straight into the Nanny’s house, looking for Kakak Ina and Kakak Izzati. Adam is still sleeping so I have to wake him up.

Me: Adam, bangun, dah sampai dah ni kat umah Mak (nanny)
Adam: (hardly open his eyes and looked at me strangely) nape Mama hantar Adam? (then he looked at nanny’s house, bewildered) eh, Adam tak nak gi umah Mak.
Me: Mana boleh camtu, Mama nak gi kerja ni, petang kang Mama amik Adam.
Adam: (suddenly sobbing then I understood that he actually asks for Gen when he asks why I sent him there instead of Gen)
Me: Babah amik Adam petang kang (upon hearing my words, Adam burst into tears, hug me and cried even louder)

I have to carry him, up the stairs of nanny’s kampong house, and pat him to sleep. When he’s sober, I kissed his forehead and went to work. But truthfully… how can I work with traces of his tears still damp on my tudung?

(Hannah is already playing happily with her sisters, waved goodbye and barely noticed my existence).

Not Yet

2008-07-22T13:34:00.000+08:00

I’m not ready for another child. Not yet. Nadia is only seven months old and I don’t want to miss anything yet again because I’m pregnant with another child. She had been such a good baby, sleeping until six am in the morning and cried for her milk and continues sleeping. Sometimes she’s asleep until we arrived at her nanny’s house. She’s been very good and I don’t want to spoil anything.

So, when I missed my period last two weeks, I was worried like mad. Everytime Gen and I discussed about it, we will be very tense. It’s not that we don’t want another child; we are not ready for another child. Actually both Gen and I, we have a secret pact. Gen promised that he will not go on any 4×4 expeditions until 30th June, 2010, and for that period I promised to be a very good, dutiful wife who will not shout at him. Yes, I know, I’m a bad wife. Please don’t judge me.

He can go to those expeditions but he just cannot sleepover, meaning he can only be around Kuantan area or Gambang or Kemaman to test his driving skill, but not anywhere further than that.

So, if I’m pregnant again then, we have to secure another pact, another prolonged term. Actually it hurts me so much to put up all this restrictions on him because it is his only way of dealing and coping with his workload and stress and my tantrums as well. Oh, crap!

A few friends suggested letting the baby go (as if I had a baby at the first instance), but that will make me a (mommy) monster. Exactly like that one person who I detest so much. I will not eat up a pineapple, drink coke with panadols or drink fresh sugarcane or coconut milk for that purpose.

So, one week late, on last Monday we bought a pregnancy test kit, no, I’m not pregnant. We got less tense, but still tense. Why la!??

Then, two weeks late, I planned to buy the pregnancy test kit again on Monday (today), but I got my period. Period.

I don’t know why, suddenly I felt lost and a bit guilty. I don’t want the baby at the first place but maybe somewhere deep inside me, I already accepted his existence.

Why did I felt this way when he’s not even with me?

School

2008-07-21T13:31:00.000+08:00

Adam keep on telling us that he wanted to go to school. So, both Gen and I went to two nurseries near my office just to check on the environment. Actually we are not sure what we are looking for or what our expectations would be but maybe we can figure something up when we were at the nurseries.

The first nursery located at a cornered lot terrace house and it has a roofed vacant area for the children to play. I can see almost 40 children there aged 3 months to 4 years old and it was pretty much packed considering the small area. I am not convinced that the caretakers there actually love their job. Most of the children were very dirty and we can actually see traces of slemo on their faces. It is just too sad. One boy aged about one and a half year took his bag and follow Gen around. He thought that Gen is his father and he wanted to go home. It was both funny and sad at the same time. I’m convinced that the boy is not happy there. There was another girl who wouldn’t stop crying from the moment we were inside the nursery until we left. She sounded so much like Hannah when she’s having one of her tantrums. That does finalize our visit and I’m not sending Adam and Hannah there.

The caretakers of the second nursery told us that they were packed and they cannot take more children. We have no opportunity of looking around at the nursery but we saw all the teaching gadgets inside the office are more convincing than the first nursery. She took our numbers and suggested another nursery for us to see but Gen decide that we have seen enough.

Close Call

2008-07-10T13:25:00.000+08:00

I almost lost a very dear friend to an accident. Seeing the pictures of the wreckage uploaded by him gives me goose bumps. He cheated death with only scratches here and there but nothing serious.His injury totally belies the serious degree of wreckage suffered by his not-so-fortunate car. Inches here or there, a different road and cars, or situation, he might be blown to pieces.

It makes me realize that this precious life can end as abruptly, just like that. You will never see it coming. People said when you hit one point that you thought you will die, all your life and faces of people that you love flashes in front of your eyes. All the things that you wish you have done all the things that you wished you had said. And when you survive, it’s like; you have a second chance at life.

I’m not ready to say goodbye to him. Not yet. Not ever. It’s just too comfortable to have him around. He’s my sanity charm, a helpful hand, a book to refer to, a laugh to share, a smile that is so contagious, ears that listens, a voice that soothe, a search-click on yahoo, a friend to talk nonsense to and reminisces the good old days. He will always be someone so dear and so close to my heart.

So, dear bro, take extra care on yourself because you might not be so damn lucky next time. You should remember that I will always care about you. You were lucky to survive unscathed and I am lucky to have the chance to tell you things that I should have told you ages ago.

My Boo

2008-06-30T12:45:00.000+08:00

“Kenapa nak bahasakan diri sebagai Ibu bila cakap dengan suami?” Mak suddenly asks me early Sunday morning. At first I didn’t understand her question.

“Hah?” Of course lah I’m very puzzled. Maybe she was talking about Kak Miah, my sister who refers herself as Ibu when she talks to her husband. Her son, nieces and nephews called her Ibu as well.

“Ana tu bahasakan diri sebagai Bu bila cakap ngan Syam,” Mak explain her question.

“Bukan Bu la, Mak. Boo” I replied, as if the pronunciation is very different. “Lagipun budak-budak panggil Ana, Mama…. bukan Ibu, macam Kak Miah.”

‘Tak baik tau suami kita panggil kita ibu ke, mama ke, mak ke. Dia tu suami kita, bukan anak kita,” Mak continues her ceramah, early Sunday morning. I never thought we will discuss this early (as in 7 am) in the morning.

“Boo tu macam darling la, Mak. Cakap omputeh. Heheheheheh,” I explained further.

“Hmm” Mak replied nonchalantly.

Well, my caller ringtone in Gen’s handphone is Usher’s My Boo. But that is not the reason why he called me Boo. Actually he starts calling me Boo after the movie Monster Inc. Boo is that little girl’s who screamed so loud but laugh even louder. I called him Kitty but that nick did not suit him. Everytime we watch a movie, we always nicknaming each other by the characters in that movie. However, the nick Boo just clicked with me. After that we have Usher’s My Boo song become a hit. So I conveniently told Gen that I want him to dedicate that song to me. LOL.

But the best part of my conversation with Mak followed shortly. I always wondered why she calls Abah as“De”. I immediately asks her, “Abis tu, Mak tu panggil Abah, De. Kenapa? De tu kan panggilan adik beradik Abah kat dia (Abah is a third child). Mak bukan adik Abah, kan?"

“De tu, Kande (Kanda).” Mak replied quietly. LOL I think she’s blushing. But I cannot tell because she was facing the washing machine and her voice is partly muffled.

“Oooo”

Usher’s My Boo.

There’s always that one person that will always have your heart

You never see it coming cause you’re blinded from the start

Know that you’re that one for me, it’s clear for everyone to see

Ooh baby, you will always be my boo

Jermaine Depri:

I don’t know about y’allb ut I know about us and uhh

It’s the only way we know how to rock (repeat)

Usher Verse

Do you remember girl, who wasthe one who gave you your first kiss

Cause I remember girl who was the onewho said put your lips like this

Even before all the fame and people screaming your name

Girl I was there and you were my baby

Chorus 1: Usher

It started when we were younger and you were mine (my boo)

Now another brothers’ taken over but its’still in your eyes (my boo)

Even though we use to argue it’s alright(It’s alright girl, that’s okay)

And if we haven’t seen each other in a while, but you will always be my boo

Chorus 2: Alicia Keys

I loved you when we were younger you were mine

And when I see from time to time I still feel like,

And if I see you no matter how I try to hide

And even though there’s another man who’s in my life, you will always be my boo

Alicia Keys Verse

Yes I remember boy, cause after we kissed I’m never gonna wipe my lips

Yes I remember boy, that you were the one I would grow old with

Even before all the fame and people screaming your name

Boy I was there and you were my baby

Sempurna

2008-06-24T12:37:00.000+08:00

Kau begitu sempurna

Dimataku kau begitu indah

Kau membuat diriku akan slalu memujimu
Disetiap langkahku

Kukan slalu memikirkan dirimu

Tak bisa kubayangkan hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku

Takkan mampu menghadapi semua

Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku

Kau adalah jantungku

Kau adalah hidupku

Lengkapi diriku

Oh sayangku, kau begitu

Sempurna…

Kau genggam tanganku

Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh

Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku
Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku

Takkan mampu menghadapi semua

Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku

Kau adalah jantungku

Kau adalah hidupku

Lengkapi diriku

Oh sayangku, kau begitu

Sempurna…

Kau genggam tanganku

Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh

Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku

Let Go

2008-06-19T12:34:00.000+08:00

I hear his voice again yesterday.I thought I’d be calm but instead my rage boiled without apparent reason. I saw flashes of that painful memory and his voice just make me feel like I’m reliving that moment again. Hatred is such a strong feeling. Overwhelming my being. I should let go. His sms-es are still inside my inbox. I’m deleting them today, but still I have to write it somewhere so that I will not forget why I hate him so much.

Him: Smalam kata nak hntar lala ktaman?Knapa pula hri ni hntar ksini?
Me: Ikut cakap Benyah
Him: Knapa smalm hntr blik kg x ikut ckp bengah?
Me: Ana minta maaf
Him: (Saya) fikir Ana hnya nak ssah n hukum bengah je
Me: Ana minta maaf

I have mixed feeling when I write this down. I remember I was crying when I sms him back. I am willing to swallow my pride and ask for forgiveness even when I strongly believe I’m right. It was very frustrating when I have all the answers to his accusations but I cannot let it out. I cannot be rude, I cannot answer him, I cannot shout and scream at the top of my lungs at him.

I should let go before this hatred eats me alive.